Just walk down the hall,
Tears in your eyes,
Got your back against the wall,
But don't feel like your out of tries.
They may beat you down,
With words so strong,
Your tears may make you drown,
But they were so wrong.
I don't want you to pay the price,
Your esteem shouldn't be sold,
Passing you by would be cold as ice,
To leave you without something to hold.
For moments you feel lesser,
Your skin is collapsing in,
We all feel the pressure,
Time and time again.
But if we let it give,
Leave us blind and deaf,
What will be your reason to live,
When in your arms there's nothing left?
I don't want you to pay the price,
Your esteem shouldn't be sold,
Passing you by would be cold as ice,
To leave you without something to hold.
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Fairy Tale
The tides are turning,
An oasis turned blue,
The palm trees are burning,
The light shining on you.
And the world just stops spinning,
As the surrounding water dries,
Past memories ever thinning,
As they flash before my eyes.
The future unravels,
Seeming to fade away,
Any hope of travels,
Are no longer in the fray.
In the air is a sad sound,
A lullaby of naught,
As we come around,
A war lost yet never fought.
A utopia never tranquil,
Born from hopes and dreams,
Never moving forward, always still,
Coming apart at the seams.
Cold as winter,
As there is no sun to shine,
Pressured like a splinter,
Feet soaked with brine.
Yet I await for your veil,
On this black coarse sand,
I want my life to be a fairy tale,
And it will as soon as you hold my hand
An oasis turned blue,
The palm trees are burning,
The light shining on you.
And the world just stops spinning,
As the surrounding water dries,
Past memories ever thinning,
As they flash before my eyes.
The future unravels,
Seeming to fade away,
Any hope of travels,
Are no longer in the fray.
In the air is a sad sound,
A lullaby of naught,
As we come around,
A war lost yet never fought.
A utopia never tranquil,
Born from hopes and dreams,
Never moving forward, always still,
Coming apart at the seams.
Cold as winter,
As there is no sun to shine,
Pressured like a splinter,
Feet soaked with brine.
Yet I await for your veil,
On this black coarse sand,
I want my life to be a fairy tale,
And it will as soon as you hold my hand
Tonight My Heart Dies
Is it worth the breath,
When there is nothing left to hold,
Nothing is ever as appealing as death,
In a world so wrong, so cold.
How even the night was bright,
The stars would shine,
But I can't find the might,
When you aren't mine.
The tears stain my hope,
Drowning my dreams for a better tomorrow,
How can one cope,
When their hearts only feel sorrow.
How am I supposed to stay,
When my emotions can't rest,
My life always ends up this way,
Miserable at best.
Nothing can ever be the same,
Without those piercing eyes,
Without your name,
Tonight my heart dies.
Shriveled up is my will,
As the sun has set forever,
All it'd take is one pill,
For my mortal attachment to sever.
When there is nothing left to hold,
Nothing is ever as appealing as death,
In a world so wrong, so cold.
How even the night was bright,
The stars would shine,
But I can't find the might,
When you aren't mine.
The tears stain my hope,
Drowning my dreams for a better tomorrow,
How can one cope,
When their hearts only feel sorrow.
How am I supposed to stay,
When my emotions can't rest,
My life always ends up this way,
Miserable at best.
Nothing can ever be the same,
Without those piercing eyes,
Without your name,
Tonight my heart dies.
Shriveled up is my will,
As the sun has set forever,
All it'd take is one pill,
For my mortal attachment to sever.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Wings Of Desire
The stars pierce the sky,
Shining onto your hair,
Clipped wings with ambition to fly,
For they once took you anywhere.
Sit on a far off hill,
To watch the lights of the city,
You your side I fill,
Cause compared to your smile nothing is quite as pretty.
Sit there watching your usual poses,
As your voice soothes my ears,
A melodic bed of roses,
Blanketed in since dry tears.
Your words still enchant the air,
In perfect harmony they flow,
The way the sun glimmers in your hair,
Makes me never want to go.
But most of all,
It is how you make me smile,
When I just want to hide and bawl,
You make me want to stay a while.
Now you fly again,
Fly even higher,
Together we float into the wind,
On the wings of desire.
Shining onto your hair,
Clipped wings with ambition to fly,
For they once took you anywhere.
Sit on a far off hill,
To watch the lights of the city,
You your side I fill,
Cause compared to your smile nothing is quite as pretty.
Sit there watching your usual poses,
As your voice soothes my ears,
A melodic bed of roses,
Blanketed in since dry tears.
Your words still enchant the air,
In perfect harmony they flow,
The way the sun glimmers in your hair,
Makes me never want to go.
But most of all,
It is how you make me smile,
When I just want to hide and bawl,
You make me want to stay a while.
Now you fly again,
Fly even higher,
Together we float into the wind,
On the wings of desire.
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Toast To The Kings
Hear the clock count down,
Count em' one two three,
Royalty with a broken crown,
What's left of thee?
You once stood so tall,
But your regime fell apart,
So quick it did fall,
Stolen dignity and shattered art.
Your once towering castle,
Is now just a collapsed house of cards,
Was it worth the hassle,
To think forever wasn't hard.
Damage beyond repair,
Never expect perfection is the norm,
It takes more than prayer,
To survive the storm.
You lived thinking you were right,
Through the eyes of vivid reverie,
Thinking you were the shiny armor knight,
Practicing exceptional chivalry.
Pierced by reality's sword,
Dear king and queen,
It was cursed in your accord,
If you know what I mean.
Life is more than gold and jewels,
Do you finally understand?
You have been ignorant fools,
So hang on to the glory at your right hand.
The time bomb's ticking comes to a halt,
Hear it start to ring,
It was all your fault,
Here is my toast to the king.
Count em' one two three,
Royalty with a broken crown,
What's left of thee?
You once stood so tall,
But your regime fell apart,
So quick it did fall,
Stolen dignity and shattered art.
Your once towering castle,
Is now just a collapsed house of cards,
Was it worth the hassle,
To think forever wasn't hard.
Damage beyond repair,
Never expect perfection is the norm,
It takes more than prayer,
To survive the storm.
You lived thinking you were right,
Through the eyes of vivid reverie,
Thinking you were the shiny armor knight,
Practicing exceptional chivalry.
Pierced by reality's sword,
Dear king and queen,
It was cursed in your accord,
If you know what I mean.
Life is more than gold and jewels,
Do you finally understand?
You have been ignorant fools,
So hang on to the glory at your right hand.
The time bomb's ticking comes to a halt,
Hear it start to ring,
It was all your fault,
Here is my toast to the king.
Monday, October 11, 2010
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Cadence Of A Dream
I listen to the calm breeze,
Softly singing a lullaby so smooth,
To one’s ears it will please,
For the sound is intricate to sooth.
The arctic crisp air surges slickly through a breach,
Into my unvoiced room;
Vivacity is the decree in which it may beseech,
As the colors blinds one’s eyes with a boom.
The aroma of pine hovers in the air,
Within my little reprieve;
Out at the glorious world I stare,
Like it was my own world of make-believe.
This is but my room,
A place I habitually infatuate;
A place where even if I met my doom,
I would still feel great.
The air is always cold,
Such sumptuousness I reminisce,
As if it were plated in gold,
This place I always miss.
I slouch on the spongy bed,
Which makes comfort a law,
With a diminutive transom overhead,
And a soft pillow to brace my jaw.
The blanket is so fuzzy and supple,
Keeping me warm at night;
We act as a mutualistic couple,
And we are planes commencing into dreams we take flight.
These visions that flash in my head,
Make up the blood in my veins;
They are the butter to my bread,
Matching the brawn to the brains.
For where else can one dream,
In a world where anything can be done,
Where everything is as it seems,
And every game can be won?
There is nothing better than dreaming another sunset,
Watching waves crash from the sea,
As the illumination leisurely gleams our silhouette,
We the leaves shimmer on the world tree.
Closer on the soft brittle sand,
We lay picture perfect;
Soaking up the last of the sun-kissed land,
Making our days worth it.
Speaking in tongues of present and past,
We embark to moments once subsisted;
Reliving the memories that may have once put us in emotional cast,
Through the day our conversing persisted.
As the time passes us by,
And the shadows start to loom,
You can hear the stars cry,
As their luminosity begins to consume.
Clouds start to integrate,
Across the heavens they lunge,
A whole new world they create,
As they are squeezed like a sponge.
The rain simply washes away,
Washes away our sorrow,
An ideal way to end a faultless day,
Never having to worry about tomorrow.
The following morning I awake,
To the chirping of a bird,
Just as the day breaks,
I find myself back in the real world.
I am not sad,
For I know I will return,
To the place where nothing is bad,
The cadence of a dream I yearn.
Until then just sprawl out here,
And let the wind carry you there,
Together we can escape fear,
Where we can live without a care.
Submerge into the mystic,
And realize that everything is alright,
Even if it may not be realistic,
It can ease you through the night.
So listen to the tranquil breeze,
To its enchanting song,
Your mind it will please,
Taking you to the place where you belong.
Softly singing a lullaby so smooth,
To one’s ears it will please,
For the sound is intricate to sooth.
The arctic crisp air surges slickly through a breach,
Into my unvoiced room;
Vivacity is the decree in which it may beseech,
As the colors blinds one’s eyes with a boom.
The aroma of pine hovers in the air,
Within my little reprieve;
Out at the glorious world I stare,
Like it was my own world of make-believe.
This is but my room,
A place I habitually infatuate;
A place where even if I met my doom,
I would still feel great.
The air is always cold,
Such sumptuousness I reminisce,
As if it were plated in gold,
This place I always miss.
I slouch on the spongy bed,
Which makes comfort a law,
With a diminutive transom overhead,
And a soft pillow to brace my jaw.
The blanket is so fuzzy and supple,
Keeping me warm at night;
We act as a mutualistic couple,
And we are planes commencing into dreams we take flight.
These visions that flash in my head,
Make up the blood in my veins;
They are the butter to my bread,
Matching the brawn to the brains.
For where else can one dream,
In a world where anything can be done,
Where everything is as it seems,
And every game can be won?
There is nothing better than dreaming another sunset,
Watching waves crash from the sea,
As the illumination leisurely gleams our silhouette,
We the leaves shimmer on the world tree.
Closer on the soft brittle sand,
We lay picture perfect;
Soaking up the last of the sun-kissed land,
Making our days worth it.
Speaking in tongues of present and past,
We embark to moments once subsisted;
Reliving the memories that may have once put us in emotional cast,
Through the day our conversing persisted.
As the time passes us by,
And the shadows start to loom,
You can hear the stars cry,
As their luminosity begins to consume.
Clouds start to integrate,
Across the heavens they lunge,
A whole new world they create,
As they are squeezed like a sponge.
The rain simply washes away,
Washes away our sorrow,
An ideal way to end a faultless day,
Never having to worry about tomorrow.
The following morning I awake,
To the chirping of a bird,
Just as the day breaks,
I find myself back in the real world.
I am not sad,
For I know I will return,
To the place where nothing is bad,
The cadence of a dream I yearn.
Until then just sprawl out here,
And let the wind carry you there,
Together we can escape fear,
Where we can live without a care.
Submerge into the mystic,
And realize that everything is alright,
Even if it may not be realistic,
It can ease you through the night.
So listen to the tranquil breeze,
To its enchanting song,
Your mind it will please,
Taking you to the place where you belong.
Our Canticle
Hey there,
I know it's hard to deal,
But I'm here to care,
So tell me what you feel.
When all is wrong,
I'll try to make it right,
Together we are strong,
And we can sleep through the night.
If you just wipe your eyes,
I promise I will give my all,
Help you realize,
That I'll never let you fall.
When there is no sun,
And there are no stars,
I'll be the one,
Who will heal these scars.
These things that tear us apart,
The pain which we all have to feel,
These ruptures to your heart,
Are never too deep to heal.
I'm the judge and you're the jury,
We got pain on trial,
No need to worry,
I'll make you smile.
For there is nothing to fear,
We can pull off a miracle,
I'll always be here,
And this is our canticle.
I know it's hard to deal,
But I'm here to care,
So tell me what you feel.
When all is wrong,
I'll try to make it right,
Together we are strong,
And we can sleep through the night.
If you just wipe your eyes,
I promise I will give my all,
Help you realize,
That I'll never let you fall.
When there is no sun,
And there are no stars,
I'll be the one,
Who will heal these scars.
These things that tear us apart,
The pain which we all have to feel,
These ruptures to your heart,
Are never too deep to heal.
I'm the judge and you're the jury,
We got pain on trial,
No need to worry,
I'll make you smile.
For there is nothing to fear,
We can pull off a miracle,
I'll always be here,
And this is our canticle.
Friday, September 24, 2010
True Night's Romantic
Don't sleep just yet,
I think we need tonight,
To watch the moon set,
And embrace the sunrise's light.
Prove to ourselves that light is there,
Even when shrouded in dark,
That together we can bear,
The black with our fire by spark.
Together we will do our own,
Holding hands watching the sun rise,
Together we are not alone,
As we stare into each others eyes.
Knowing that through the night we stay,
Hoping to see dawn break's light,
Smiling with our hands a sway,
Noticing that your eyes still shine more bright.
Then we fall asleep,
As you my arms embrace,
Together the day we reap,
My chest to your face.
When we awake,
From waves sweeping the Atlantic,
Smiles erupt to our faces like earthquakes,
For we lived the night romantic.
I think we need tonight,
To watch the moon set,
And embrace the sunrise's light.
Prove to ourselves that light is there,
Even when shrouded in dark,
That together we can bear,
The black with our fire by spark.
Together we will do our own,
Holding hands watching the sun rise,
Together we are not alone,
As we stare into each others eyes.
Knowing that through the night we stay,
Hoping to see dawn break's light,
Smiling with our hands a sway,
Noticing that your eyes still shine more bright.
Then we fall asleep,
As you my arms embrace,
Together the day we reap,
My chest to your face.
When we awake,
From waves sweeping the Atlantic,
Smiles erupt to our faces like earthquakes,
For we lived the night romantic.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Prey Beware
Listen to our bellowing cries,
Crashing through the night,
A wolf pack made up of alibis,
Under the moons all concealing light.
Hear it in the howl,
The scent of the red soaked white,
We are on the prowl,
And you’re the prey tonight.
The smell of blood is pungent in the air,
Like a gas line sprung a leak;
We stop and stare,
Studying the weak.
Synchronized in paces,
We become bullets tearing through the wind;
The cold burns our faces,
As if we were skinned.
We are gaining ground,
At astonishing speed,
Yet we make not a sound,
To give you any heed.
We pounce on arrival,
Like a bolt of lightening,
It’s essential to survival,
To instill a lifeless frightening.
We don’t mess around,
As it is a matter of life of death;
You’re stomach bound,
Once we steal your breath.
Under this moon of crescent,
The rest of your crimson blood will be spilled,
Once living a life effervescent,
Is now left killed.
You have met your fate,
Before me and my pack,
You’re the entrée and the world is the plate,
As we finish our attack.
We feel no remorse,
Feeding ourselves is no crime,
Nothing personal of course,
For we all have to die sometime.
The smell of blood is the notice,
That we will soon be there;
The land will still bestow us,
So prey beware.
Crashing through the night,
A wolf pack made up of alibis,
Under the moons all concealing light.
Hear it in the howl,
The scent of the red soaked white,
We are on the prowl,
And you’re the prey tonight.
The smell of blood is pungent in the air,
Like a gas line sprung a leak;
We stop and stare,
Studying the weak.
Synchronized in paces,
We become bullets tearing through the wind;
The cold burns our faces,
As if we were skinned.
We are gaining ground,
At astonishing speed,
Yet we make not a sound,
To give you any heed.
We pounce on arrival,
Like a bolt of lightening,
It’s essential to survival,
To instill a lifeless frightening.
We don’t mess around,
As it is a matter of life of death;
You’re stomach bound,
Once we steal your breath.
Under this moon of crescent,
The rest of your crimson blood will be spilled,
Once living a life effervescent,
Is now left killed.
You have met your fate,
Before me and my pack,
You’re the entrée and the world is the plate,
As we finish our attack.
We feel no remorse,
Feeding ourselves is no crime,
Nothing personal of course,
For we all have to die sometime.
The smell of blood is the notice,
That we will soon be there;
The land will still bestow us,
So prey beware.
Monday, September 13, 2010
Don't Wake Up
You fell asleep,
And now you are shackled in Hell,
Your true dream you can't keep,
You're afraid, and I can tell.
What happens when you awake,
To see that this Hell is true,
How long until you will forsake,
The sanity holding together you.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
Unfortunate loss,
That of your will,
Out for the coin toss,
Tails shows and your blood spills.
The legs cave in,
As you collapse to the ground,
Drenched in your sin again,
With no one around.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
There is no way back from here,
You're lost in the deep end,
Drowning in your fear,
For yourself you can't fend.
It feels so alone,
As at the sound of her voice it falls apart,
We all should of known,
I won't be easy to fix the broken pieces of my heart.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
Don't wake up,
Or you will be dead,
Don't wake up,
Or you will never be wed.
And now you are shackled in Hell,
Your true dream you can't keep,
You're afraid, and I can tell.
What happens when you awake,
To see that this Hell is true,
How long until you will forsake,
The sanity holding together you.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
Unfortunate loss,
That of your will,
Out for the coin toss,
Tails shows and your blood spills.
The legs cave in,
As you collapse to the ground,
Drenched in your sin again,
With no one around.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
There is no way back from here,
You're lost in the deep end,
Drowning in your fear,
For yourself you can't fend.
It feels so alone,
As at the sound of her voice it falls apart,
We all should of known,
I won't be easy to fix the broken pieces of my heart.
These nightmares are reality,
Just don't wake up,
You will become the fatality,
So don't wake up.
Don't wake up,
Or you will be dead,
Don't wake up,
Or you will never be wed.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Follow Me Home
I wander around,
In search of what's left of me,
If it was never lost can it be found,
Or will it just cease to be?
The one I love is found here,
But he is no longer alone,
Someone else is holding him dear,
As I should of known.
Now I just look into his eyes,
And tears form to our faces,
We break into cries,
For we no longer have the same embraces.
Now we don't know what to do,
In this land we comb,
I walk away but keep looking at you,
Will you follow me home?
Once over the hill where you can not see,
I collapse to my knees and cry my heart out,
Just hoping you followed to find me,
And take away my hearts drought.
Waiting for your return,
Into my long since empty arms which miss you,
That inside my is dimly burning,
This love I still hold true.
In search of what's left of me,
If it was never lost can it be found,
Or will it just cease to be?
The one I love is found here,
But he is no longer alone,
Someone else is holding him dear,
As I should of known.
Now I just look into his eyes,
And tears form to our faces,
We break into cries,
For we no longer have the same embraces.
Now we don't know what to do,
In this land we comb,
I walk away but keep looking at you,
Will you follow me home?
Once over the hill where you can not see,
I collapse to my knees and cry my heart out,
Just hoping you followed to find me,
And take away my hearts drought.
Waiting for your return,
Into my long since empty arms which miss you,
That inside my is dimly burning,
This love I still hold true.
Friday, September 10, 2010
Heart Broken
Maybe he wants to leave,
But his heart still beats the same,
Without a way for him to breath,
He hears your echoing name.
He has lost his way,
As his road is now gone,
Will he see the light of day,
Beyond his depression so wrong.
Imprisoned, on a sinking ship,
He drowns behind bars,
Looking for the lips,
That had him living in the stars.
If he could find a way back,
He would run there at top speed,
Through the door and the crack,
To you it would lead.
He deadly misses the past,
When he was less sad,
Memories when forever they would last,
The time they never had.
He's filled the ocean with his tears,
As he lives with the words unspoken,
It was the worst of his fears,
Leaving his heart broken.
But his heart still beats the same,
Without a way for him to breath,
He hears your echoing name.
He has lost his way,
As his road is now gone,
Will he see the light of day,
Beyond his depression so wrong.
Imprisoned, on a sinking ship,
He drowns behind bars,
Looking for the lips,
That had him living in the stars.
If he could find a way back,
He would run there at top speed,
Through the door and the crack,
To you it would lead.
He deadly misses the past,
When he was less sad,
Memories when forever they would last,
The time they never had.
He's filled the ocean with his tears,
As he lives with the words unspoken,
It was the worst of his fears,
Leaving his heart broken.
Monday, September 6, 2010
Peace Of Mind
Just another one in the crowd,
Fighting for my chance to break through,
Of my accomplishments I may be proud,
But will that be enough for you.
I am strong enough to stand on my own two feet,
Or at least I wish that I could say,
My strength is my own defeat,
Because I am not a part of that cliche.
I am not the one who can hold his own,
Rather just watch me fall,
Once again feel so alone,
As I just witness me losing it all.
Why must I let everything pass me by,
Such a curse in which I possess,
Sometimes I wonder why I even try,
Let me tell you I'm a mess.
Just let me bury it,
Just to see it happen again,
Excavate the grave for it,
In a losing game can I win?
I am not the one who can hold his own,
Rather just watch me fall,
Once again feel so alone,
As I just witness me losing it all.
We all feel this weak,
At sometime in our life,
Such a losing streak,
That we find ourselves staring down the knife.
Cause we can't do it alone,
Without a tourniquet to bind,
Through this pain we have grown,
And left us with some peace of mind.
Fighting for my chance to break through,
Of my accomplishments I may be proud,
But will that be enough for you.
I am strong enough to stand on my own two feet,
Or at least I wish that I could say,
My strength is my own defeat,
Because I am not a part of that cliche.
I am not the one who can hold his own,
Rather just watch me fall,
Once again feel so alone,
As I just witness me losing it all.
Why must I let everything pass me by,
Such a curse in which I possess,
Sometimes I wonder why I even try,
Let me tell you I'm a mess.
Just let me bury it,
Just to see it happen again,
Excavate the grave for it,
In a losing game can I win?
I am not the one who can hold his own,
Rather just watch me fall,
Once again feel so alone,
As I just witness me losing it all.
We all feel this weak,
At sometime in our life,
Such a losing streak,
That we find ourselves staring down the knife.
Cause we can't do it alone,
Without a tourniquet to bind,
Through this pain we have grown,
And left us with some peace of mind.
Friday, September 3, 2010
The Great Fire
A haziness fills the air,
This picture is foggy to the eye,
You stand there and stare,
As smoke trickles into the sky.
Still waiting for your loves return,
You gag on the all consuming fumes,
Your body begins to burn,
I am on my way you presume.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
This burning paradise,
Is our test of endurance,
Once we prevail it will be nice,
As fall back on love as assurance.
I storm into this wall,
The heat is more then we can stand,
I come up to you as you fall,
I catch you and take your hand.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
Once we are far enough away,
We drop to the ground,
We watch it burn to gray,
Without making a sound.
So much beauty within this disaster,
As it becomes but an ember,
A year later we have grew faster,
We still remember.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
The ashes that pulled us together,
The smoke that once filled the sky above,
We knew it was now or never,
To prove our love.
We are left with only the memory,
Of the fire where our love made its start,
How much this event means to me,
And how it still burns in our hearts.
This picture is foggy to the eye,
You stand there and stare,
As smoke trickles into the sky.
Still waiting for your loves return,
You gag on the all consuming fumes,
Your body begins to burn,
I am on my way you presume.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
This burning paradise,
Is our test of endurance,
Once we prevail it will be nice,
As fall back on love as assurance.
I storm into this wall,
The heat is more then we can stand,
I come up to you as you fall,
I catch you and take your hand.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
Once we are far enough away,
We drop to the ground,
We watch it burn to gray,
Without making a sound.
So much beauty within this disaster,
As it becomes but an ember,
A year later we have grew faster,
We still remember.
And through these thick flames,
You see my shadow in distance,
You hear me calling your name,
As you stand with resistance.
Trapped in this great fire,
But you trust me to break through,
Waiting for the thirst of desire,
Waiting for me to save you.
The ashes that pulled us together,
The smoke that once filled the sky above,
We knew it was now or never,
To prove our love.
We are left with only the memory,
Of the fire where our love made its start,
How much this event means to me,
And how it still burns in our hearts.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Cross The Line
You say the fault is your own,
But I know it is mine,
While they steal our throne,
We fall further behind.
This royal relation we possess,
Is being taken from under our feet,
Our beating hearts are left a mess,
We have fallen to this masked deceit.
So this is our last chance,
To make the lost found,
Recreate our first dance,
Upon this earthquake stricken ground.
Just follow the rhythm of the beat,
Synchronize our watches back in time,
Back to the moment where we meet,
And once again we will cross the line.
Let's run through this town,
Like bulls on parade,
Turn the world upside down,
Just to end up in the same masquerade.
This place is not the same,
I miss the days when these streets were home,
Back when me and you would play the game,
And through this city we'd roam.
So this is our last chance,
To make the lost found,
Recreate our first dance,
Upon this earthquake stricken ground.
Just follow the rhythm of the beat,
Synchronize our watches back in time,
Back to the moment where we meet,
And once again we will cross the line.
We are the lost,
Who now are the found,
The lines we have crossed,
Leave our hearts bound.
Friends hearts work together,
Like a bullet to a gun,
They live through all weather,
Because they beat as one.
But I know it is mine,
While they steal our throne,
We fall further behind.
This royal relation we possess,
Is being taken from under our feet,
Our beating hearts are left a mess,
We have fallen to this masked deceit.
So this is our last chance,
To make the lost found,
Recreate our first dance,
Upon this earthquake stricken ground.
Just follow the rhythm of the beat,
Synchronize our watches back in time,
Back to the moment where we meet,
And once again we will cross the line.
Let's run through this town,
Like bulls on parade,
Turn the world upside down,
Just to end up in the same masquerade.
This place is not the same,
I miss the days when these streets were home,
Back when me and you would play the game,
And through this city we'd roam.
So this is our last chance,
To make the lost found,
Recreate our first dance,
Upon this earthquake stricken ground.
Just follow the rhythm of the beat,
Synchronize our watches back in time,
Back to the moment where we meet,
And once again we will cross the line.
We are the lost,
Who now are the found,
The lines we have crossed,
Leave our hearts bound.
Friends hearts work together,
Like a bullet to a gun,
They live through all weather,
Because they beat as one.
Monday, August 30, 2010
Story Of My Fall
I sit staring at the wall all alone,
Saying I know you won't let me down,
Been at this for days, I should of known,
That in your lies I would drown.
Slowly this silence is killing me,
I'm breaking down and freaking out,
Pull my heart out for you to see,
What this is all about.
What will it take to make,
You know that I need you,
How long until I break,
How long until your promise rings true?
I'll make you wish you never left,
As pieces of me fall to the floor,
This will be my last breath,
I can't stand thinking of you anymore.
Such a beautiful lie,
This writing on the wall,
To run you can try,
As my blood paints the story of my fall.
Saying I know you won't let me down,
Been at this for days, I should of known,
That in your lies I would drown.
Slowly this silence is killing me,
I'm breaking down and freaking out,
Pull my heart out for you to see,
What this is all about.
What will it take to make,
You know that I need you,
How long until I break,
How long until your promise rings true?
I'll make you wish you never left,
As pieces of me fall to the floor,
This will be my last breath,
I can't stand thinking of you anymore.
Such a beautiful lie,
This writing on the wall,
To run you can try,
As my blood paints the story of my fall.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Tainted Faith
The nostalgia I feel is so immense,
This longing for what once was,
Break down a wall just to rebuild a fence,
Take a hit just to find out it killed the buzz.
Reach for your hand just to trip,
Full of deceit was this simple design,
Into the crack I would slip,
Caught up in thinking you were mine.
The air surrounding me now is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.
But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.
Feel these walls come crashing in,
As the ground pulls me under,
Stuck in my trench again,
But I can't help but wonder.
He is looking at me,
Awkwardly from over there,
Should I of known it wasn't meant to be,
Should I care?
The air surrounding me know is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.
But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.
I should of known,
This wouldn't just blow over,
Love this feeling being all alone,
I'm just missing a leaf as a four-leaf clover.
This longing for what once was,
Break down a wall just to rebuild a fence,
Take a hit just to find out it killed the buzz.
Reach for your hand just to trip,
Full of deceit was this simple design,
Into the crack I would slip,
Caught up in thinking you were mine.
The air surrounding me now is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.
But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.
Feel these walls come crashing in,
As the ground pulls me under,
Stuck in my trench again,
But I can't help but wonder.
He is looking at me,
Awkwardly from over there,
Should I of known it wasn't meant to be,
Should I care?
The air surrounding me know is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.
But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.
I should of known,
This wouldn't just blow over,
Love this feeling being all alone,
I'm just missing a leaf as a four-leaf clover.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
The Wind Sings
Take off down the road,
There is a long way 'til the end,
It may not be paved in gold,
But at least we are together my friend.
Run down this trail,
Like a bullet tearing through the wind,
Together we will prevail,
Like our lips set a grinned.
See the sun rising,
Like the smiles on our faces,
Our minds are memorizing,
The future our silhouette embraces.
And goodnight past,
You have come and gone,
Once you put our hearts in a cast,
But now they are beating strong.
Let's just await,
To find out what is ours,
The night is our escape,
To lay under the moon and the stars.
The wind sings a song,
Of our travel through the years,
How even when weak we became strong,
Through obstacles and fears.
Watch the time pass us by,
But we don't care,
We never question why,
Cause it left with us there.
Cause there's still tomorrow,
Another day to have our fun,
Forget the sorrow,
And just be through the rain and the sun.
There is a long way 'til the end,
It may not be paved in gold,
But at least we are together my friend.
Run down this trail,
Like a bullet tearing through the wind,
Together we will prevail,
Like our lips set a grinned.
See the sun rising,
Like the smiles on our faces,
Our minds are memorizing,
The future our silhouette embraces.
And goodnight past,
You have come and gone,
Once you put our hearts in a cast,
But now they are beating strong.
Let's just await,
To find out what is ours,
The night is our escape,
To lay under the moon and the stars.
The wind sings a song,
Of our travel through the years,
How even when weak we became strong,
Through obstacles and fears.
Watch the time pass us by,
But we don't care,
We never question why,
Cause it left with us there.
Cause there's still tomorrow,
Another day to have our fun,
Forget the sorrow,
And just be through the rain and the sun.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Until These Tables Turn
I hate how this is,
I always find a way to make you mad,
You rarely find bliss,
Compared to this rush of pain and sad.
Let's try to get this straight,
Will we ever just get along,
Speaking in tongues that incarcerate,
Our happiness can't stay strong.
I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.
We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.
You so easily take my efforts as vain,
Nothing more than a selfish endeavor,
To try and help you must complain,
Because best friends shouldn't be forever.
We shouldn't be playing this game,
You two are only running from yourself,
"But she's not the same!",
Isn't enough to put it on the shelf.
I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.
We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.
But we will never just get along,
From the past you just walk away,
You let friendship be come and gone,
And it will catch up one day.
So run faster with your pride,
No signs of slowing towards a curve,
You can run but not hide,
We will never get what we deserve.
I always find a way to make you mad,
You rarely find bliss,
Compared to this rush of pain and sad.
Let's try to get this straight,
Will we ever just get along,
Speaking in tongues that incarcerate,
Our happiness can't stay strong.
I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.
We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.
You so easily take my efforts as vain,
Nothing more than a selfish endeavor,
To try and help you must complain,
Because best friends shouldn't be forever.
We shouldn't be playing this game,
You two are only running from yourself,
"But she's not the same!",
Isn't enough to put it on the shelf.
I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.
We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.
But we will never just get along,
From the past you just walk away,
You let friendship be come and gone,
And it will catch up one day.
So run faster with your pride,
No signs of slowing towards a curve,
You can run but not hide,
We will never get what we deserve.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
A New Beginning
As we begin to fall apart,
We have to make a move,
This ending shall become a new start,
When our friendship we smooth.
We will create a path,
Starting at this dead end,
It is but simple math,
And together we conquer, my friend.
For it is what we do,
Building up these bridges together,
For with me and you,
We will do anything to make it last forever.
Easy it will not be,
Some might say it can't be done,
But have faith in me,
And this war will be won.
Forever and always was a promise,
Which I intend to keep,
For deep inside your still my bliss,
And without you I couldn't breath to weep.
So look me in the eyes,
We can make it through,
We will throw our worries to the sky,
Even if it's the last thing we do.
We have to make a move,
This ending shall become a new start,
When our friendship we smooth.
We will create a path,
Starting at this dead end,
It is but simple math,
And together we conquer, my friend.
For it is what we do,
Building up these bridges together,
For with me and you,
We will do anything to make it last forever.
Easy it will not be,
Some might say it can't be done,
But have faith in me,
And this war will be won.
Forever and always was a promise,
Which I intend to keep,
For deep inside your still my bliss,
And without you I couldn't breath to weep.
So look me in the eyes,
We can make it through,
We will throw our worries to the sky,
Even if it's the last thing we do.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Follow Me
Walk to the edge,
To see if you will follow,
Is my trust worth the pledge,
Or is this relation hollow.
Burst into tears,
To see if you're there,
Show you my fears,
To see if you care.
Fall from the sky,
Will you catch my fall,
Is it worth the try,
Or are you not there at all?
Come closer to me,
So you I can hold,
Maybe you will see,
That it is not because I'm cold.
I'm afraid to want you,
Because I don't know how to feel,
What can I do,
But ask if this is real.
I sense the light,
Trying to reach me,
There is an angel in the night,
Who I desperately want to see.
Listen to the silence so calm,
Slowly easing my mind,
As the light I hold in my palm,
Washing the doubt behind.
And soon the rain,
Will wash away the doubt,
Wash away the pain,
And I will finally know what it is all about.
To see if you will follow,
Is my trust worth the pledge,
Or is this relation hollow.
Burst into tears,
To see if you're there,
Show you my fears,
To see if you care.
Fall from the sky,
Will you catch my fall,
Is it worth the try,
Or are you not there at all?
Come closer to me,
So you I can hold,
Maybe you will see,
That it is not because I'm cold.
I'm afraid to want you,
Because I don't know how to feel,
What can I do,
But ask if this is real.
I sense the light,
Trying to reach me,
There is an angel in the night,
Who I desperately want to see.
Listen to the silence so calm,
Slowly easing my mind,
As the light I hold in my palm,
Washing the doubt behind.
And soon the rain,
Will wash away the doubt,
Wash away the pain,
And I will finally know what it is all about.
A Wake Up Call
Open your eyes,
This is a wake up call,
Erase the lies,
Stand up from the fall.
Explode across the thin line,
You aren't one to follow the code,
Intricate by design,
You are better then to fit the mold.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
When the rain falls down,
Dance in the rain,
When there is someone else around,
Go out and act insane.
You don't have to blend in,
No one wants to be dull,
Just pick yourself up again,
It is time to cull.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
Deafening silence fills the room,
Randomly yell and wail,
You are crazy they may assume,
But you bring upon a tale.
Sing a song of your own,
You don't have to follow canticle,
Who cares if you sing alone,
You aren't just another invisible.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
They may stare,
As you put society on the shelf,
To fit in you need not dare,
Just go out and be yourself.
This is a wake up call,
Erase the lies,
Stand up from the fall.
Explode across the thin line,
You aren't one to follow the code,
Intricate by design,
You are better then to fit the mold.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
When the rain falls down,
Dance in the rain,
When there is someone else around,
Go out and act insane.
You don't have to blend in,
No one wants to be dull,
Just pick yourself up again,
It is time to cull.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
Deafening silence fills the room,
Randomly yell and wail,
You are crazy they may assume,
But you bring upon a tale.
Sing a song of your own,
You don't have to follow canticle,
Who cares if you sing alone,
You aren't just another invisible.
A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.
They may stare,
As you put society on the shelf,
To fit in you need not dare,
Just go out and be yourself.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Awaking From A Coma
I want to see the light,
That has been slowly slipping away,
I want to not cry at night,
When thinking of those days.
I want to be able to be fun,
Who I used to be,
But am I strong enough to run,
And become the old me.
Can I beat my emptiness,
That currently consumes my mind,
Will I be able to remember this,
Person I had left behind?
Can I change my name,
To change my persona,
I'm not the same,
Can I awake from a self-inflicted coma?
I've created a monster out of myself,
And sold my being to live another day,
I line up fourth and twelve,
In this pass I must pray.
Tonight I may not sleep,
I need to undo the stitching,
My mind needs to be changed so deep,
And this new me needs ditching.
I just hope my best is good enough,
Though I know it never is,
I know the road is long and rough,
I'm sorry if I don't make it out of this.
That has been slowly slipping away,
I want to not cry at night,
When thinking of those days.
I want to be able to be fun,
Who I used to be,
But am I strong enough to run,
And become the old me.
Can I beat my emptiness,
That currently consumes my mind,
Will I be able to remember this,
Person I had left behind?
Can I change my name,
To change my persona,
I'm not the same,
Can I awake from a self-inflicted coma?
I've created a monster out of myself,
And sold my being to live another day,
I line up fourth and twelve,
In this pass I must pray.
Tonight I may not sleep,
I need to undo the stitching,
My mind needs to be changed so deep,
And this new me needs ditching.
I just hope my best is good enough,
Though I know it never is,
I know the road is long and rough,
I'm sorry if I don't make it out of this.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Finding Reason
Through missing truth,
And endless lies,
We live our youth,
In broken cries.
Reaching so far,
With our arms too short,
We reach for a star,
Wishing as a last resort.
Hoping to become more,
Then just another mistake,
We wish to know the reason for,
Our life in this reality so fake.
If we chase the sun,
Will we ever reach it's shine?
If towards the light we run,
Will its radiance become mine?
Or will we just burn up in it's heat,
Melting away our soul,
May it's beauty be no more then deceit,
With it's harmful glow.
Either way we will look,
We will find the reason to be,
And we will write in this book,
About the truth we did see.
Happiness comes from each other,
For in ourselves we are free,
Your my sister, I'm your brother,
And happiness is knowing that it is all about you and me.
And endless lies,
We live our youth,
In broken cries.
Reaching so far,
With our arms too short,
We reach for a star,
Wishing as a last resort.
Hoping to become more,
Then just another mistake,
We wish to know the reason for,
Our life in this reality so fake.
If we chase the sun,
Will we ever reach it's shine?
If towards the light we run,
Will its radiance become mine?
Or will we just burn up in it's heat,
Melting away our soul,
May it's beauty be no more then deceit,
With it's harmful glow.
Either way we will look,
We will find the reason to be,
And we will write in this book,
About the truth we did see.
Happiness comes from each other,
For in ourselves we are free,
Your my sister, I'm your brother,
And happiness is knowing that it is all about you and me.
Monday, August 2, 2010
What Is Love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-it isn`t love, it`s like.
You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-it isn`t love, it`s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn`t love, it`s pride.
Do you want them because you know they`re there??
-it isn`t love, it`s loneliness.
Are you there because it`s what everyone wants??
-it isn`t love, it`s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
-it isn`t love, it`s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt them??
-it isn`t love, it`s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
-it isn`t love, it`s infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-it isn`t love, it`s friendship.
Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of??
-it isn`t love, it`s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-it isn`t love, it`s charity.
Do you disregard yourself and don't care what you want at all, only what they do??
-it isn't love, it is caring
Do you feel you can't live without them??
-it isn't love, it is dependence
Do you never want to be without them??
-it isn't love, it's obsession
Do you accept and want their faults because they`re a part of who they are??
-then it`s love.
-it isn`t love, it`s like.
You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-it isn`t love, it`s lust.
Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn`t love, it`s pride.
Do you want them because you know they`re there??
-it isn`t love, it`s loneliness.
Are you there because it`s what everyone wants??
-it isn`t love, it`s loyalty.
Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
-it isn`t love, it`s low confidence.
Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt them??
-it isn`t love, it`s pity.
Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
-it isn`t love, it`s infatuation.
Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-it isn`t love, it`s friendship.
Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of??
-it isn`t love, it`s a lie.
Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-it isn`t love, it`s charity.
Do you disregard yourself and don't care what you want at all, only what they do??
-it isn't love, it is caring
Do you feel you can't live without them??
-it isn't love, it is dependence
Do you never want to be without them??
-it isn't love, it's obsession
Do you accept and want their faults because they`re a part of who they are??
-then it`s love.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Not For Sale
The perfect crime,
Our hearts unlock these doors,
You steal mine,
And I will take yours.
We come to find,
Them trying to tear us apart,
They may change our minds,
But they can never change our hearts.
They can not stop us,
Together we will always prevail,
For in each other we trust,
And our love is not for sale.
We may be young,
But we aren't dumb,
As long as there is air in our lungs,
They won't make us numb.
For we believe in love,
And we will stay together,
As long as our hearts feel above,
We will be forever.
Our hearts unlock these doors,
You steal mine,
And I will take yours.
We come to find,
Them trying to tear us apart,
They may change our minds,
But they can never change our hearts.
They can not stop us,
Together we will always prevail,
For in each other we trust,
And our love is not for sale.
We may be young,
But we aren't dumb,
As long as there is air in our lungs,
They won't make us numb.
For we believe in love,
And we will stay together,
As long as our hearts feel above,
We will be forever.
Friday, July 30, 2010
Where We Belong
No one knows,
What tomorrow may bring,
Our fear it shows,
How we know not a thing.
We hold on too long,
To what used to be,
I wrote this song,
As a reminder to me.
That we need to castaway our flaws,
In order to let go,
Our aching hearts and broken jaws,
Go with the flow.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
Take my hand,
And we will erase the past,
This can be our final stand,
But forever it can last.
If we only live for yesterday,
There cannot be a tomorrow,
We will never be happy that way,
Only drown in our sorrow.
So please join my heart,
And see that we are all we'll ever need,
And I promise we will never be apart,
But we will end up wherever our love may lead.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
Just don't say you aren't able,
Because I know you can,
Together we can turn the tables,
And never have to face what had began.
Just listen to my voice,
And we can drift away,
It is your choice,
If you want to see a new day.
But remember our dream,
Where together we could be forever,
It is only possible if we work as a team,
It is now or never.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
What tomorrow may bring,
Our fear it shows,
How we know not a thing.
We hold on too long,
To what used to be,
I wrote this song,
As a reminder to me.
That we need to castaway our flaws,
In order to let go,
Our aching hearts and broken jaws,
Go with the flow.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
Take my hand,
And we will erase the past,
This can be our final stand,
But forever it can last.
If we only live for yesterday,
There cannot be a tomorrow,
We will never be happy that way,
Only drown in our sorrow.
So please join my heart,
And see that we are all we'll ever need,
And I promise we will never be apart,
But we will end up wherever our love may lead.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
Just don't say you aren't able,
Because I know you can,
Together we can turn the tables,
And never have to face what had began.
Just listen to my voice,
And we can drift away,
It is your choice,
If you want to see a new day.
But remember our dream,
Where together we could be forever,
It is only possible if we work as a team,
It is now or never.
So take us away,
To the place where we belong,
Where we can seize the day,
And forever stand strong.
Where we know,
That all is just right,
Where a cool wind blows,
And we can see the stars at night.
Where we know we can rest,
Knowing that we are happy above,
Our hearts are the best,
Because they are entwined in our love.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Nothing Feel Reals Anymore
I lost my motivation,
To care for myself,
Now I just feel the sensation,
Of putting me on the shelf.
But the cuts are never too deep,
So they all will heal,
Revealing scars in my sleep,
To show how I feel.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
I don't need to care what I want,
For that will get me nowhere,
Even if my mind it haunts,
And it won't ever leave there.
Pull back the skin,
To show how I feel,
Again and again,
To make me think I'm real.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
Bandages can hide my pain,
But for my pain I don't give a damn,
On my skin it is just a stain,
To show who I am.
Run from my light,
The dark has it's place here,
It is not worth a fight,
The dark is nothing to fear.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
Pull back the sheet,
To reveal the ending,
The story is complete,
To end this pretending.
Run from my desire,
It doesn't matter that I'm no longer real,
You have put out my fire,
So for what you want I can feel.
And nothing feels real anymore,
And truly about whats right for you I don't give a damn,
If you want it to end with you sore,
Then I must hide from you who I am.
I am locked away,
Nothing to worry about anymore,
I won't see another light of day,
For here comes the end that you prayed for.
To care for myself,
Now I just feel the sensation,
Of putting me on the shelf.
But the cuts are never too deep,
So they all will heal,
Revealing scars in my sleep,
To show how I feel.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
I don't need to care what I want,
For that will get me nowhere,
Even if my mind it haunts,
And it won't ever leave there.
Pull back the skin,
To show how I feel,
Again and again,
To make me think I'm real.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
Bandages can hide my pain,
But for my pain I don't give a damn,
On my skin it is just a stain,
To show who I am.
Run from my light,
The dark has it's place here,
It is not worth a fight,
The dark is nothing to fear.
The scars are born,
From all the careless ways,
Where I make my skin torn,
From all these careless days.
Cause nothing feels real anymore,
And to express myself I can not dare,
Me I can't be caring for,
Because it is for you I must care.
Pull back the sheet,
To reveal the ending,
The story is complete,
To end this pretending.
Run from my desire,
It doesn't matter that I'm no longer real,
You have put out my fire,
So for what you want I can feel.
And nothing feels real anymore,
And truly about whats right for you I don't give a damn,
If you want it to end with you sore,
Then I must hide from you who I am.
I am locked away,
Nothing to worry about anymore,
I won't see another light of day,
For here comes the end that you prayed for.
Tuesday, July 27, 2010
Mistake
The hardest part is falling down again,
I'm a fool to just watch you walk away,
I am trying to tread water without being able to swim,
In the depths of our pool of decay.
You are falling deeper then you'd ever imagine,
And to say the least it is all my fault,
It is beyond my ability to sit and fathom,
Why I allowed this to become a result.
Anythings that's left is yours to keep,
I don't think I will ever wake,
All that's left is me in eternal sleep,
To pay for the most important mistake.
I'm a fool to just watch you walk away,
I am trying to tread water without being able to swim,
In the depths of our pool of decay.
You are falling deeper then you'd ever imagine,
And to say the least it is all my fault,
It is beyond my ability to sit and fathom,
Why I allowed this to become a result.
Anythings that's left is yours to keep,
I don't think I will ever wake,
All that's left is me in eternal sleep,
To pay for the most important mistake.
Left In Peace
Sometimes I wonder,
Why I'd rather live then die,
My whole life is a constant blunder,
I don't even know why I still try.
I can't take this anymore,
With all these pieces of my heart,
What am I fighting for,
It's only tearing me apart.
I love you to death,
I really do,
But I'm running out of breath,
And it is because of you.
I lived this once before,
It destroyed my life,
It left me living sore,
And added the knife.
And now I live,
Knowing that I let you down,
I fail at the one thing I'm meant to give,
And in my blood I drown.
Please just let me die,
Let my pain release,
Don't even cry,
For I will leave in peace.
Why I'd rather live then die,
My whole life is a constant blunder,
I don't even know why I still try.
I can't take this anymore,
With all these pieces of my heart,
What am I fighting for,
It's only tearing me apart.
I love you to death,
I really do,
But I'm running out of breath,
And it is because of you.
I lived this once before,
It destroyed my life,
It left me living sore,
And added the knife.
And now I live,
Knowing that I let you down,
I fail at the one thing I'm meant to give,
And in my blood I drown.
Please just let me die,
Let my pain release,
Don't even cry,
For I will leave in peace.
Sunday, July 25, 2010
Castaway
Her dad was a drunk,
Her mom was an addict,
Their girls heart was sunk,
Locked in an attic.
Her only friend,
Was a little toy bear,
It was old and worn at the end,
And had patches of hair.
She always talked to it,
When no one's around,
She lays there and hugs it,
Without a peep of sound.
Until her parents so vain,
Unlock the door,
Some more and more pain,
She'll have to endure more.
A bruise on her leg,
A scar on her face,
Oh how she may beg,
In such a horrible place.
But she grabs her bear,
And softly cries,
She loves her parents because she cares,
But they want her to die.
She sits in the corner,
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why am I a loner,
And I'm always sinking? "
Such a bad life,
For a sad little kid,
She'd get beaten and see a knife,
For anything she did.
Then one night,
Her mom came home high,
And the girl was beaten out of sight,
As hours went by.
Then her mom took out,
A shiny new blade,
It was sharp and without a doubt,
One that she made.
She thrusted the blade,
Right in her chest,
The girl was so afraid,
Miserable at best.
The mom walked away,
Leaving the girl slowly dying,
She grabbed her bear that day,
And again started crying.
Police arrive a little late,
At the small little house,
Then quickly began to escalate,
Everything quiet as a mouse.
One officer slowly,
Opened a door,
To find the little girl lonely,
Lying dead on the floor.
It must have been bad,
To go through so much harm,
But at least she died not too sad,
With her best friend in her arms.
Her mom was an addict,
Their girls heart was sunk,
Locked in an attic.
Her only friend,
Was a little toy bear,
It was old and worn at the end,
And had patches of hair.
She always talked to it,
When no one's around,
She lays there and hugs it,
Without a peep of sound.
Until her parents so vain,
Unlock the door,
Some more and more pain,
She'll have to endure more.
A bruise on her leg,
A scar on her face,
Oh how she may beg,
In such a horrible place.
But she grabs her bear,
And softly cries,
She loves her parents because she cares,
But they want her to die.
She sits in the corner,
Quiet but thinking,
"Please God, why am I a loner,
And I'm always sinking? "
Such a bad life,
For a sad little kid,
She'd get beaten and see a knife,
For anything she did.
Then one night,
Her mom came home high,
And the girl was beaten out of sight,
As hours went by.
Then her mom took out,
A shiny new blade,
It was sharp and without a doubt,
One that she made.
She thrusted the blade,
Right in her chest,
The girl was so afraid,
Miserable at best.
The mom walked away,
Leaving the girl slowly dying,
She grabbed her bear that day,
And again started crying.
Police arrive a little late,
At the small little house,
Then quickly began to escalate,
Everything quiet as a mouse.
One officer slowly,
Opened a door,
To find the little girl lonely,
Lying dead on the floor.
It must have been bad,
To go through so much harm,
But at least she died not too sad,
With her best friend in her arms.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
Changes
When it is change we face,
I know I'll run away,
So scared for my past to erase,
And the thoughts of forgetting a day.
Something keeps us holding on,
To every single tear,
Every promise broken we were leaning on,
All these mistakes so clear.
Have you ever felt like this within,
The pieces shattering in your heart,
Your being snapping beneath the skin,
Until you just fall apart.
Lines need to be drawn,
Changes need to be made,
The worse parts of this have come and gone,
And we need help to not fade.
These repeated mistakes,
Make us all sore,
And all the changes it makes,
For we are not sure anymore
We have to move on,
Before time is too big of a cost,
We can't be too far gone,
For we pay for every second lost.
Just let me guide you through this,
And I'll surely be there,
For your happy mood I miss,
And you know I care.
We all know there is something wrong,
I just don't know what I can do,
Just pat your back and say stay strong,
You know I'd do anything for you
I know I'll run away,
So scared for my past to erase,
And the thoughts of forgetting a day.
Something keeps us holding on,
To every single tear,
Every promise broken we were leaning on,
All these mistakes so clear.
Have you ever felt like this within,
The pieces shattering in your heart,
Your being snapping beneath the skin,
Until you just fall apart.
Lines need to be drawn,
Changes need to be made,
The worse parts of this have come and gone,
And we need help to not fade.
These repeated mistakes,
Make us all sore,
And all the changes it makes,
For we are not sure anymore
We have to move on,
Before time is too big of a cost,
We can't be too far gone,
For we pay for every second lost.
Just let me guide you through this,
And I'll surely be there,
For your happy mood I miss,
And you know I care.
We all know there is something wrong,
I just don't know what I can do,
Just pat your back and say stay strong,
You know I'd do anything for you
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
Exhale The Truth
Why can I not change,
Everything I hate about me,
Why can my thoughts not rearrange,
And make the me I want to see?
I know I can't be perfect,
But why must I be so far,
I don't feel it is worth it,
To just wish it all upon a star.
I can't let go of my excessive emotion,
I know because I've lost count of all the times I've tried,
There is not enough room in the deepest ocean,
To hold all the tears that I've cried.
This is more than a crack in the surface,
That needs to be filled,
All these mistakes without purpose,
With all this blood I spilled.
Just bury my head,
And hope to find a way,
Bury it in the red,
In hope to move on to another day.
Will I always hide,
From the true,
Will I ever find inside,
The me I want so cold and blue.
This boy in the mirror,
Is that really me?
Or is it a sum of my fear,
Making my eyes too blind to see.
Maybe change is in my fate,
For I am still in my youth,
In this next breath I create,
May I exhale the truth.
Everything I hate about me,
Why can my thoughts not rearrange,
And make the me I want to see?
I know I can't be perfect,
But why must I be so far,
I don't feel it is worth it,
To just wish it all upon a star.
I can't let go of my excessive emotion,
I know because I've lost count of all the times I've tried,
There is not enough room in the deepest ocean,
To hold all the tears that I've cried.
This is more than a crack in the surface,
That needs to be filled,
All these mistakes without purpose,
With all this blood I spilled.
Just bury my head,
And hope to find a way,
Bury it in the red,
In hope to move on to another day.
Will I always hide,
From the true,
Will I ever find inside,
The me I want so cold and blue.
This boy in the mirror,
Is that really me?
Or is it a sum of my fear,
Making my eyes too blind to see.
Maybe change is in my fate,
For I am still in my youth,
In this next breath I create,
May I exhale the truth.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Not Your Playground
I welcome you here,
To this place full of dark and light,
There's nothing to fear,
And you can sleep sound tonight.
I let you here because I trust,
You to be gentle and set me free,
But listen close you must,
To the words coming from me.
This might be a new place,
That you want to explore,
And these tears once written on my face,
Are here if that's what your looking for.
This party is always going,
Whether I want it to or not,
My feeling within is showing,
And occasionally the outside shines while the inside rots.
But I trust you will stay in the light,
And through it you will grow,
Everything will be alright,
As long as you know.
That here you are safe and sound,
Just be careful from the start,
For this is not your playground,
It's my heart.
To this place full of dark and light,
There's nothing to fear,
And you can sleep sound tonight.
I let you here because I trust,
You to be gentle and set me free,
But listen close you must,
To the words coming from me.
This might be a new place,
That you want to explore,
And these tears once written on my face,
Are here if that's what your looking for.
This party is always going,
Whether I want it to or not,
My feeling within is showing,
And occasionally the outside shines while the inside rots.
But I trust you will stay in the light,
And through it you will grow,
Everything will be alright,
As long as you know.
That here you are safe and sound,
Just be careful from the start,
For this is not your playground,
It's my heart.
Friday, July 16, 2010
Once Upon A Love
They are so young,
The truth they don't know,
They share their tongue,
And they think they grow.
But then she cheated,
And it fell apart,
He laid there defeated,
Surrounded by pieces of his heart.
They used to smile at each other,
With their hearts floating high above,
They never thought they'd love another,
Once upon a love.
They were so happy together,
They thought it would never end,
Not everything lasts forever,
Including love my friend.
He just left her one day,
Since he didn't stand a chance,
He said he didn't want it this way,
For she didn't let him in her pants.
They used to want to soar,
Together on the wings of a dove,
But they were never anything more.
Once upon a love.
Why must love come to an end,
More often then it stays,
Why can we not comprehend,
That love often only lasts for days.
Perhaps we never did understand,
How love never was really there,
We were so caught up in holding hands,
That we forgot that love is more than care.
Love is thinking for that someone,
And never about yourself,
Just hoping they are the one,
That will take your heart off the shelf.
For they are happy how the feeling is "ours",
They want to be together when they are sent above,
And when they die their story will be written in the stars,
When it becomes once upon a love.
The truth they don't know,
They share their tongue,
And they think they grow.
But then she cheated,
And it fell apart,
He laid there defeated,
Surrounded by pieces of his heart.
They used to smile at each other,
With their hearts floating high above,
They never thought they'd love another,
Once upon a love.
They were so happy together,
They thought it would never end,
Not everything lasts forever,
Including love my friend.
He just left her one day,
Since he didn't stand a chance,
He said he didn't want it this way,
For she didn't let him in her pants.
They used to want to soar,
Together on the wings of a dove,
But they were never anything more.
Once upon a love.
Why must love come to an end,
More often then it stays,
Why can we not comprehend,
That love often only lasts for days.
Perhaps we never did understand,
How love never was really there,
We were so caught up in holding hands,
That we forgot that love is more than care.
Love is thinking for that someone,
And never about yourself,
Just hoping they are the one,
That will take your heart off the shelf.
For they are happy how the feeling is "ours",
They want to be together when they are sent above,
And when they die their story will be written in the stars,
When it becomes once upon a love.
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
Your Disease
You have gone too far,
This is all your fault,
I'll take more than a wish upon a star,
To save you from this assault.
Say your final lines,
Before I take your life,
I will show the pain that binds,
Just watch the knife.
Friends stab you in the back,
But as your lover there is a better part,
Here you pay for the morals you lack,
As I stab you through the heart.
Bleed away for you were wrong,
You never guessed I'd call your failure,
You never thought I was this strong,
And could make this cut fit for a tailor.
You will not die here,
That would save you,
Instead you'll live in fear,
For all that you do.
Look me in the eyes,
And smile at me,
You fed me lies,
And now I'm your disease.
This is all your fault,
I'll take more than a wish upon a star,
To save you from this assault.
Say your final lines,
Before I take your life,
I will show the pain that binds,
Just watch the knife.
Friends stab you in the back,
But as your lover there is a better part,
Here you pay for the morals you lack,
As I stab you through the heart.
Bleed away for you were wrong,
You never guessed I'd call your failure,
You never thought I was this strong,
And could make this cut fit for a tailor.
You will not die here,
That would save you,
Instead you'll live in fear,
For all that you do.
Look me in the eyes,
And smile at me,
You fed me lies,
And now I'm your disease.
One Last Stand
In the worst of all your fears,
You now find yourself in tears,
As these words, they crash your ears,
She becomes the rust upon your gears.
You are left to wonder whats over the hill,
Whether a valley of sorrow, or a water so still,
To cross this ridge, do you have the will,
To find a way for this void to fill.
We all are sometimes sad, we all relate,
We all have had times when we made a mistake,
And these errors are our destinies picked by fate,
Which from our lives they create.
Chasing dreams, is like chasing cars,
We can't run that fast, and we are stuck behind bars,
But just look to the sky, and see these stars,
All of these, they could be ours.
We have plenty of time, according to the hourglasses sand,
So lets travel to a far off land,
It is so simple, just take my hand,
And together we will make one last stand.
You now find yourself in tears,
As these words, they crash your ears,
She becomes the rust upon your gears.
You are left to wonder whats over the hill,
Whether a valley of sorrow, or a water so still,
To cross this ridge, do you have the will,
To find a way for this void to fill.
We all are sometimes sad, we all relate,
We all have had times when we made a mistake,
And these errors are our destinies picked by fate,
Which from our lives they create.
Chasing dreams, is like chasing cars,
We can't run that fast, and we are stuck behind bars,
But just look to the sky, and see these stars,
All of these, they could be ours.
We have plenty of time, according to the hourglasses sand,
So lets travel to a far off land,
It is so simple, just take my hand,
And together we will make one last stand.
Rain On Your Parade
How fake can you be,
You empty-hearted whore,
Now you are worthless to me,
Just a faker and nothing more.
I used to see you,
Through clouded eyes,
But now I know whats true,
And I see through your lies.
Cry the same alibi,
Time and time again,
All you want is to be high,
And live your favorite sin.
At the snap of a guy's finger,
You get on your back,
To take the bee's stinger,
For faith you lack.
So weak you are,
To sink this low,
It will never get you far,
For there's no place to go
Your favorite things to do
I can say without missing a beat,
It is so like you,
To lie, steal, and cheat.
And at the end of the trail,
You will pay for your mistake,
Haunted by your betrayal,
And you will learn the consequences of being fake.
Life is so fun behind the mask,
But this will be your last masquerade,
I love doing this last task,
Time to rain on your parade.
You empty-hearted whore,
Now you are worthless to me,
Just a faker and nothing more.
I used to see you,
Through clouded eyes,
But now I know whats true,
And I see through your lies.
Cry the same alibi,
Time and time again,
All you want is to be high,
And live your favorite sin.
At the snap of a guy's finger,
You get on your back,
To take the bee's stinger,
For faith you lack.
So weak you are,
To sink this low,
It will never get you far,
For there's no place to go
Your favorite things to do
I can say without missing a beat,
It is so like you,
To lie, steal, and cheat.
And at the end of the trail,
You will pay for your mistake,
Haunted by your betrayal,
And you will learn the consequences of being fake.
Life is so fun behind the mask,
But this will be your last masquerade,
I love doing this last task,
Time to rain on your parade.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Paper Wings
Fly on these paper wings,
Travel to places you can't run,
See what the horizon brings,
Before these wings burn up in the sun.
They burn up so quickly,
And when the fire dies,
The cold makes you sickly,
And you fall from the skies.
You weep tears of sorrow,
As you lost your wings,
You think there is no tomorrow,
But for you I'll pull some strings.
There are more than one set,
Of wings that can make you fly,
You will feel better i bet,
After this cry.
You just need to find a sturdy pair,
Paper will burn, but feathers will last,
I will help you find these wings because I care,
But the search will not be fast.
So take my hand, and we will make this right,
You will have better luck, the triple seven,
We will start our search tonight,
For those wings to take you straight to heaven.
Travel to places you can't run,
See what the horizon brings,
Before these wings burn up in the sun.
They burn up so quickly,
And when the fire dies,
The cold makes you sickly,
And you fall from the skies.
You weep tears of sorrow,
As you lost your wings,
You think there is no tomorrow,
But for you I'll pull some strings.
There are more than one set,
Of wings that can make you fly,
You will feel better i bet,
After this cry.
You just need to find a sturdy pair,
Paper will burn, but feathers will last,
I will help you find these wings because I care,
But the search will not be fast.
So take my hand, and we will make this right,
You will have better luck, the triple seven,
We will start our search tonight,
For those wings to take you straight to heaven.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Our Beginning Is Coming To An End
We all have a weakness,
That from time to time makes us cry,
Now I must ask for forgiveness,
So look me in the eye.
Sometimes I lose sight,
Of all the things I hold inside,
I find it hard decide if it is right,
For these feelings to hide.
I want you to know this,
I can't seem to keep secrets from you,
But I also risk your bliss,
When telling you what is true.
The sickness turns me into another,
You got to remind that I'm hiding,
Just say we'll always have each other,
And our trust needs not defying.
You know that I'm caving in,
It is so hard to identify,
I just wish we could be happy again,
I know we can if we try.
We can't always be winning,
For there always will be mistakes to mend,
And this is just our beginning,
Coming to an end.
So when something seems to dig at me,
Just say you'll be here no matter what I say,
If my problems you want to see,
I will no longer hide away.
That from time to time makes us cry,
Now I must ask for forgiveness,
So look me in the eye.
Sometimes I lose sight,
Of all the things I hold inside,
I find it hard decide if it is right,
For these feelings to hide.
I want you to know this,
I can't seem to keep secrets from you,
But I also risk your bliss,
When telling you what is true.
The sickness turns me into another,
You got to remind that I'm hiding,
Just say we'll always have each other,
And our trust needs not defying.
You know that I'm caving in,
It is so hard to identify,
I just wish we could be happy again,
I know we can if we try.
We can't always be winning,
For there always will be mistakes to mend,
And this is just our beginning,
Coming to an end.
So when something seems to dig at me,
Just say you'll be here no matter what I say,
If my problems you want to see,
I will no longer hide away.
Friday, July 2, 2010
The Question Of
I can not help but think,
In this air so cold,
I'm being pushed to the brink,
Of the regrets I hold.
I have nothing left to show,
To this world except,
My problems that I know,
And all the promises I never kept.
Why didn't I ever believe,
That empty words were not enough,
In my sadistic reprieve,
I am left with the question of:
Just who am I to live today,
So thrashed and scattered?
Is it really meant to end this way?
Have I ever mattered?
In this air so cold,
I'm being pushed to the brink,
Of the regrets I hold.
I have nothing left to show,
To this world except,
My problems that I know,
And all the promises I never kept.
Why didn't I ever believe,
That empty words were not enough,
In my sadistic reprieve,
I am left with the question of:
Just who am I to live today,
So thrashed and scattered?
Is it really meant to end this way?
Have I ever mattered?
Thursday, July 1, 2010
I Can Only Dream
I really want to be able to,
Erase all your fears,
And if I could be part of you,
I'd want to be your tears.
My birth may be sad,
It is where I would start,
Is it all that bad,
To be conceived in your heart?
The beauty within,
Brought out by lies,
Time and time again,
I'd be born in your eyes.
Happy I want you to be,
When sad I'll be within reach,
Me you won't see,
But I will live on your cheek.
And as I move down your face,
After your cry,
I meet me final resting place,
Where on your lips I die.
But I lived the happiest life,
I could ever wish,
Even though I couldn't be your wife,
It is your love that made it full of bliss.
Erase all your fears,
And if I could be part of you,
I'd want to be your tears.
My birth may be sad,
It is where I would start,
Is it all that bad,
To be conceived in your heart?
The beauty within,
Brought out by lies,
Time and time again,
I'd be born in your eyes.
Happy I want you to be,
When sad I'll be within reach,
Me you won't see,
But I will live on your cheek.
And as I move down your face,
After your cry,
I meet me final resting place,
Where on your lips I die.
But I lived the happiest life,
I could ever wish,
Even though I couldn't be your wife,
It is your love that made it full of bliss.
Out Of Luck
Just look at your reflection,
You knew it right from the start,
You tried to strive for perfection,
But now you're falling apart.
The look on your face,
You know you are beat,
This is not the place,
To fall from your feet.
You let yourself become,
Weak by your own fear,
You are now cold and numb,
You can see it in the mirror.
You feel so sick,
So nauseous and stressed,
Being torn down brick by brick,
And becoming depressed.
All your time spent,
Doesn't mean a thing anymore,
This pain you can't prevent,
To even the score.
You're so worthless,
So just give up,
Empty and hopeless,
You've run out of luck.
You knew it right from the start,
You tried to strive for perfection,
But now you're falling apart.
The look on your face,
You know you are beat,
This is not the place,
To fall from your feet.
You let yourself become,
Weak by your own fear,
You are now cold and numb,
You can see it in the mirror.
You feel so sick,
So nauseous and stressed,
Being torn down brick by brick,
And becoming depressed.
All your time spent,
Doesn't mean a thing anymore,
This pain you can't prevent,
To even the score.
You're so worthless,
So just give up,
Empty and hopeless,
You've run out of luck.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Just Don't Blink
Broken love and shattered smiles,
Leading the way to your door,
Inside is wasted time and empty vials,
And you all beaten and tore.
I can see you need a hand,
But it takes two to make this right,
I can only help you stand,
If you are willing to face the fight.
I can see the pain,
The world has caused you,
Your will they may drain,
And how nothing you can do.
You can't blink,
Or else they will tear us apart,
And don't ever think,
That they were right from the start.
You deserve better,
Then what they've done,
Like I may play letter,
I will show you the sun.
This is not yet known,
But it will be needed in near time,
Through the seeds you've sewn,
You will need this rhyme.
I care so much,
And yet I always want more,
I will always offer a crutch,
But It is you I still long for.
Leading the way to your door,
Inside is wasted time and empty vials,
And you all beaten and tore.
I can see you need a hand,
But it takes two to make this right,
I can only help you stand,
If you are willing to face the fight.
I can see the pain,
The world has caused you,
Your will they may drain,
And how nothing you can do.
You can't blink,
Or else they will tear us apart,
And don't ever think,
That they were right from the start.
You deserve better,
Then what they've done,
Like I may play letter,
I will show you the sun.
This is not yet known,
But it will be needed in near time,
Through the seeds you've sewn,
You will need this rhyme.
I care so much,
And yet I always want more,
I will always offer a crutch,
But It is you I still long for.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wearing Thin
This love is wearing thin,
Yet it seems to endure,
It can bend but not break again,
For it is still strong one may infer.
This reflection once so defined,
Is now hard to see clearly,
Search so hard but can't seem to find,
Why I once held her so dearly.
Do I like who she is,
Or who I made her into,
A case of hit or miss,
A game of fake or true.
We all have to let go,
One time or another,
I never said I told you so,
So we will hold onto each other.
I never said it would be easy,
But together we will press on,
We will get through it believe me,
For I remain here when everything else is gone.
Yet it seems to endure,
It can bend but not break again,
For it is still strong one may infer.
This reflection once so defined,
Is now hard to see clearly,
Search so hard but can't seem to find,
Why I once held her so dearly.
Do I like who she is,
Or who I made her into,
A case of hit or miss,
A game of fake or true.
We all have to let go,
One time or another,
I never said I told you so,
So we will hold onto each other.
I never said it would be easy,
But together we will press on,
We will get through it believe me,
For I remain here when everything else is gone.
Monday, June 21, 2010
I Can't Always Be Perfect
I have to let you know,
That I will always be there,
How much I care I will show,
Through the times of joy and despair.
When I am happy and feel like I'm blessed,
I will be there to tell you it is okay,
And when I am broken down and depressed,
I will let you know that I'm here anyway.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Through the times of glee,
And when the times are tough,
The times we feel free,
And when we feel we're not enough.
Always I will be here for you,
To help you face down a demon,
For you, anything I would do,
My love gives me the reason.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But remember I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
I'd do anything for a smile,
For it makes me complete,
One would make it worth the while,
And sweep me off my feet.
So when you are down,
I will be ready to hold,
Your joy will be found,
And I will not let you be cold.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
That I will always be there,
How much I care I will show,
Through the times of joy and despair.
When I am happy and feel like I'm blessed,
I will be there to tell you it is okay,
And when I am broken down and depressed,
I will let you know that I'm here anyway.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Through the times of glee,
And when the times are tough,
The times we feel free,
And when we feel we're not enough.
Always I will be here for you,
To help you face down a demon,
For you, anything I would do,
My love gives me the reason.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But remember I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
I'd do anything for a smile,
For it makes me complete,
One would make it worth the while,
And sweep me off my feet.
So when you are down,
I will be ready to hold,
Your joy will be found,
And I will not let you be cold.
For you will always be worth it,
But there might be times I make you cry,
For I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Everything I tell you, you deserve it,
To you I swear that I will never lie,
But I cannot always be perfect,
But I will always try.
Friday, June 18, 2010
If Only They Were Lonely
I see it in your eyes,
Not meaning to gloat,
But I can hear the butterflies,
Fluttering in your throat.
I can see you are shaking,
It is okay to be a little nervous,
It is the fire we are making,
Even if you don't think you deserve us.
I doubt people will accept it,
They could never understand,
That does not justify us to quit,
But rather to hold your hand.
I do not need to suppress,
How I feel when I'm in love,
For without you I'd feel the stress,
And not live in the heavens above.
Some might say,
We are moving way too fast,
But it is our way,
To make it last.
But never be afraid,
To be who you are,
For they will degrade,
For loving someone a far.
It is in their ignorance,
That they have never known,
Blinded by false radiance,
For they have never been all alone.
Not meaning to gloat,
But I can hear the butterflies,
Fluttering in your throat.
I can see you are shaking,
It is okay to be a little nervous,
It is the fire we are making,
Even if you don't think you deserve us.
I doubt people will accept it,
They could never understand,
That does not justify us to quit,
But rather to hold your hand.
I do not need to suppress,
How I feel when I'm in love,
For without you I'd feel the stress,
And not live in the heavens above.
Some might say,
We are moving way too fast,
But it is our way,
To make it last.
But never be afraid,
To be who you are,
For they will degrade,
For loving someone a far.
It is in their ignorance,
That they have never known,
Blinded by false radiance,
For they have never been all alone.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Always Been Paper Thin
I don't know why,
I now hurt so much,
I think I need to breakdown and cry,
And not go for a crutch.
I need to feel it,
Penetrating deeper than skin,
But to my emotions I emit,
I shouldnt be scared to sin.
It has seen this many a time,
And has been repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
I thirst for the pulse,
To see myself bleed,
Watch myself convulse,
I just feel the need.
To fill the void,
For I know it so well,
My hope may be destroyed,
Only time will tell.
For it has seen this many a time,
And has been repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
Now I go silent,
I will do it alone,
The outcome is indefinite,
As I won't pay attention to the phone.
Can I survive my will,
Do I care enough,
As my blood it spills,
Can I just call it a bluff?
And as I see it one more time,
Repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
I now hurt so much,
I think I need to breakdown and cry,
And not go for a crutch.
I need to feel it,
Penetrating deeper than skin,
But to my emotions I emit,
I shouldnt be scared to sin.
It has seen this many a time,
And has been repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
I thirst for the pulse,
To see myself bleed,
Watch myself convulse,
I just feel the need.
To fill the void,
For I know it so well,
My hope may be destroyed,
Only time will tell.
For it has seen this many a time,
And has been repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
Now I go silent,
I will do it alone,
The outcome is indefinite,
As I won't pay attention to the phone.
Can I survive my will,
Do I care enough,
As my blood it spills,
Can I just call it a bluff?
And as I see it one more time,
Repeated again and again,
Maybe it is a sign,
That my skin has always been paper thin.
Scars Are My Skin
A step in my shoes,
How long will it take to break?
Desolate views,
Is it a way of life or just a mistake?
It was just after my birthday,
When my heart finally did sink,
I threw my life away,
When my mind would not stop to think.
I was wrecked and broken,
All blood stained again and again,
Now I'm always over spoken,
And the scars I now call my skin.
I live through this,
So alone and forsaken,
I never thought I'd miss,
The days when I was only mistaken.
As my life goes,
I've forgotten how to feel,
All these cuts that won't close,
An these wounds that will never heal.
And I get through it,
On your wings of light,
I can almost now forget,
How I've repeatedly lost the fight.
Now a smile is always right there,
It has shown to be all worth it,
Someone for I can always care,
And finally I know the meaning of perfect.
Even after going days without food,
And days without sleep,
I owe you so much more than gratitude,
For I am no longer skin deep.
How long will it take to break?
Desolate views,
Is it a way of life or just a mistake?
It was just after my birthday,
When my heart finally did sink,
I threw my life away,
When my mind would not stop to think.
I was wrecked and broken,
All blood stained again and again,
Now I'm always over spoken,
And the scars I now call my skin.
I live through this,
So alone and forsaken,
I never thought I'd miss,
The days when I was only mistaken.
As my life goes,
I've forgotten how to feel,
All these cuts that won't close,
An these wounds that will never heal.
And I get through it,
On your wings of light,
I can almost now forget,
How I've repeatedly lost the fight.
Now a smile is always right there,
It has shown to be all worth it,
Someone for I can always care,
And finally I know the meaning of perfect.
Even after going days without food,
And days without sleep,
I owe you so much more than gratitude,
For I am no longer skin deep.
Monday, June 14, 2010
The Burning Questions
The burning questions,
Running through my head,
Maybe wished suggestions,
Of me just being dead.
Could this ever be?
Most likely not,
He would not want to wait for me,
For I will be forgot.
Does he love you?
I doubt anyone would,
And I know it will never be true,
Even if being together could.
Why do you even try?
I have not a clue,
It always makes me cry,
Whenever I do.
Is this really worth it?
Even though it may cause pain,
I will never quit,
For he never fails to make me feel sane.
Running through my head,
Maybe wished suggestions,
Of me just being dead.
Could this ever be?
Most likely not,
He would not want to wait for me,
For I will be forgot.
Does he love you?
I doubt anyone would,
And I know it will never be true,
Even if being together could.
Why do you even try?
I have not a clue,
It always makes me cry,
Whenever I do.
Is this really worth it?
Even though it may cause pain,
I will never quit,
For he never fails to make me feel sane.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Welcome To Oblivion
A game of failing faith,
Saying you trust but never do,
In these arms you feel never safe,
And the insecurity consumes you.
This lie is slowly eating away,
At your soul and heart,
You never meant to feel this way,
From the inside being torn apart.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
You want to do what is right,
But you are scared that you will cause pain,
Inside you are having a fight,
Against yourself within your brain.
Or you can finally admit,
It is all a lie,
You can move on and forget,
That time you made me cry.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
Forget the blood that I spilled,
All over my wrist,
To remember it I am thrilled,
And at the thought I triumphantly pump my fist.
All that time was wasted,
On your ever vibrant voice,
All those lies I tasted,
Left me without a choice.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
Saying you trust but never do,
In these arms you feel never safe,
And the insecurity consumes you.
This lie is slowly eating away,
At your soul and heart,
You never meant to feel this way,
From the inside being torn apart.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
You want to do what is right,
But you are scared that you will cause pain,
Inside you are having a fight,
Against yourself within your brain.
Or you can finally admit,
It is all a lie,
You can move on and forget,
That time you made me cry.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
Forget the blood that I spilled,
All over my wrist,
To remember it I am thrilled,
And at the thought I triumphantly pump my fist.
All that time was wasted,
On your ever vibrant voice,
All those lies I tasted,
Left me without a choice.
So welcome to oblivion,
Where we all are our own enemy,
Things will never be the same again,
For we bear this entity.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
A Story Of Love
Chasing the night,
Without a care,
Love at first sight,
It was just there.
Standing so still,
As the jaw hits the floor,
The void starts to fill,
Unlike ever before.
Hit it off,
Right from hello,
Uttering a nervous cough,
As the words bellow.
Talk for a long time,
See the rising sun,
Caught in the shine,
Is a love just begun.
A few years go by,
"Til death do us part",
A happy cry,
Towards this new start.
Grow old,
Fading away,
Their lives are sold,
After one last thought of the day.
A story of love,
Too good to be true,
Throw away those you care of,
For it is selfish to you.
Without a care,
Love at first sight,
It was just there.
Standing so still,
As the jaw hits the floor,
The void starts to fill,
Unlike ever before.
Hit it off,
Right from hello,
Uttering a nervous cough,
As the words bellow.
Talk for a long time,
See the rising sun,
Caught in the shine,
Is a love just begun.
A few years go by,
"Til death do us part",
A happy cry,
Towards this new start.
Grow old,
Fading away,
Their lives are sold,
After one last thought of the day.
A story of love,
Too good to be true,
Throw away those you care of,
For it is selfish to you.
My Mind
You taste the sorrow,
You lick it from your lips,
There is no tomorrow,
For you are in the apocalypse.
You walk on broken glass,
In hopes the shards will lead the way,
You question but are afraid to ask,
Why you press on this day.
The air is so rigid,
Cutting at your limbs and face,
Your heart so frigid,
Cries to get out of this place.
You climb the highest mountains,
You search the lowest trenches,
All you found were countless sins,
And a bunch of holes in my defenses.
Such an ugly place,
To ever find,
And to my disgrace,
You found my mind.
You lick it from your lips,
There is no tomorrow,
For you are in the apocalypse.
You walk on broken glass,
In hopes the shards will lead the way,
You question but are afraid to ask,
Why you press on this day.
The air is so rigid,
Cutting at your limbs and face,
Your heart so frigid,
Cries to get out of this place.
You climb the highest mountains,
You search the lowest trenches,
All you found were countless sins,
And a bunch of holes in my defenses.
Such an ugly place,
To ever find,
And to my disgrace,
You found my mind.
Monday, May 31, 2010
My Reflection
These feelings we will never share,
No matter how hard I try for you they are never there.
Why must my heart always feel so cold,
Why is it your hand I can never hold?
My future is looking even more bleak,
With each second my heart becomes even more weak.
I really wish that I could change,
That the way I am I could rearrange.
I know what I want to be,
But that person I will never see.
Who I want to be could not ever be clearer,
But the truth is I will always just be the boy within the mirror.
No matter how hard I try for you they are never there.
Why must my heart always feel so cold,
Why is it your hand I can never hold?
My future is looking even more bleak,
With each second my heart becomes even more weak.
I really wish that I could change,
That the way I am I could rearrange.
I know what I want to be,
But that person I will never see.
Who I want to be could not ever be clearer,
But the truth is I will always just be the boy within the mirror.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Burning Inside Me
I hate feeling like this,
I know that I should not feel this way,
For the reasons not there is an endless list,
But yet they never fail to stay.
These feelings thrive within,
This fire is far too hot,
My ability to hold it back is wearing thin,
It is much harder than I ever thought.
I am scared to death,
That I will ruin it all,
These feelings leave me without breath,
I can't learn to walk until I learn to crawl.
My balance is gone,
I can no longer stand,
I will not see another dawn,
If I cannot hold your hand.
I am so pathetic,
To you I will never be more,
With your smile so aesthetic,
That will shine evermore.
I am just another one,
That is not worth holding,
Might as well grab the gun,
And let it give me scolding.
I'm so sick of trying,
To seem like I am happy too,
Truly inside I am crying,
Longing to hold you.
Will you please just notice me,
I wish I would just cross your mind,
The waves are now dragging me to sea,
By you I know I will be left behind.
I know I will always love you,
More than I will ever be able to show,
Living without you is hard to do,
So much harder than you will ever know.....
I know that I should not feel this way,
For the reasons not there is an endless list,
But yet they never fail to stay.
These feelings thrive within,
This fire is far too hot,
My ability to hold it back is wearing thin,
It is much harder than I ever thought.
I am scared to death,
That I will ruin it all,
These feelings leave me without breath,
I can't learn to walk until I learn to crawl.
My balance is gone,
I can no longer stand,
I will not see another dawn,
If I cannot hold your hand.
I am so pathetic,
To you I will never be more,
With your smile so aesthetic,
That will shine evermore.
I am just another one,
That is not worth holding,
Might as well grab the gun,
And let it give me scolding.
I'm so sick of trying,
To seem like I am happy too,
Truly inside I am crying,
Longing to hold you.
Will you please just notice me,
I wish I would just cross your mind,
The waves are now dragging me to sea,
By you I know I will be left behind.
I know I will always love you,
More than I will ever be able to show,
Living without you is hard to do,
So much harder than you will ever know.....
Drink It Away
Take a drink,
It will soothe your pain,
You never did think,
That you were sane.
As the bullets pass you by,
And you live to tell your story,
You drop to your knees to ask "why?",
As you take another drink from your forty.
You're still alive,
But you don't want to be,
You don't live but just survive,
And for mercy you fall to your knees.
You collapse and pass out,
Face down on the floor,
In your breathe you can smell the doubt,
You can't take it anymore.
You tried to drink away your problems,
Just to wake up worse than you began,
The answer is within how you solve them,
And without fixes you can.
It will soothe your pain,
You never did think,
That you were sane.
As the bullets pass you by,
And you live to tell your story,
You drop to your knees to ask "why?",
As you take another drink from your forty.
You're still alive,
But you don't want to be,
You don't live but just survive,
And for mercy you fall to your knees.
You collapse and pass out,
Face down on the floor,
In your breathe you can smell the doubt,
You can't take it anymore.
You tried to drink away your problems,
Just to wake up worse than you began,
The answer is within how you solve them,
And without fixes you can.
Happy Picture
I will paint you a picture,
Of what may never exist,
You and me will be the fixture,
As I paint with my wrist.
It is so bloody and torn,
The skin you can't see,
Just like my heart so worn,
Broken inside of me.
And with each bit painted,
I lose a bit more of myself,
This picture becomes tainted,
With my heart on the shelf.
A picture painted in blood,
Where I am happy with you,
Bring on the flood,
For I have to be happy somewhere too.
Of what may never exist,
You and me will be the fixture,
As I paint with my wrist.
It is so bloody and torn,
The skin you can't see,
Just like my heart so worn,
Broken inside of me.
And with each bit painted,
I lose a bit more of myself,
This picture becomes tainted,
With my heart on the shelf.
A picture painted in blood,
Where I am happy with you,
Bring on the flood,
For I have to be happy somewhere too.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
A Home Complete
Welcome home,
My long lost friend,
The streets you may comb,
You will never comprehend.
Since when has home felt so unfamiliar,
Even when filled with those you once loved,
What is missing you can't figure,
And the thing amiss you have not dubbed.
The twinkle of your eyes,
As tears are born,
This family is lies,
And the lost you mourn.
This may be your family,
But they never did understand,
Their ignorance expressed awfully,
Puts this knife in your hand.
But out of nowhere,
Your hand feels a tug of resistance,
I am suddenly there,
And your face brightly glistens.
This home is complete,
This is how it is supposed to feel,
I am the ground beneath your feet,
And this time it is real.
My long lost friend,
The streets you may comb,
You will never comprehend.
Since when has home felt so unfamiliar,
Even when filled with those you once loved,
What is missing you can't figure,
And the thing amiss you have not dubbed.
The twinkle of your eyes,
As tears are born,
This family is lies,
And the lost you mourn.
This may be your family,
But they never did understand,
Their ignorance expressed awfully,
Puts this knife in your hand.
But out of nowhere,
Your hand feels a tug of resistance,
I am suddenly there,
And your face brightly glistens.
This home is complete,
This is how it is supposed to feel,
I am the ground beneath your feet,
And this time it is real.
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Will You Be Waiting?
Do you remember the past,
When we used to be so innocent,
We were moving so fast,
Before we began our descent.
I remember the smile you wore,
And how it twisted my tongue,
I truthfully always wanted more,
On your line I was strung
When I looked in your eyes,
I was lost in seduction,
You saw right through my disguise,
It never served its function.
You had it first,
For you knew how to make it right,
While searching for the thirst,
To drive my heart that night.
Now you just ignore,
What you know I possess,
To you I am nothing more,
Then the same friend of loneliness.
And the glimpse of hope,
Still flickers in the distance,
To clean this wound takes more than soap,
But takes the peak of my resistance.
So when I come running over the horizon,
Will you wait with arms wide open?
I would gladly rest within,
And say the three words soft spoken.
When we used to be so innocent,
We were moving so fast,
Before we began our descent.
I remember the smile you wore,
And how it twisted my tongue,
I truthfully always wanted more,
On your line I was strung
When I looked in your eyes,
I was lost in seduction,
You saw right through my disguise,
It never served its function.
You had it first,
For you knew how to make it right,
While searching for the thirst,
To drive my heart that night.
Now you just ignore,
What you know I possess,
To you I am nothing more,
Then the same friend of loneliness.
And the glimpse of hope,
Still flickers in the distance,
To clean this wound takes more than soap,
But takes the peak of my resistance.
So when I come running over the horizon,
Will you wait with arms wide open?
I would gladly rest within,
And say the three words soft spoken.
What We Have Become
When we finally realize,
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
Our personalities turning numb.
We've lost ourselves in the cadence,
And we are missing the picture,
Living with nothing but impatience,
It is within our nature.
We still don't have a clue,
The way we truly feel,
Behind our facades we hide whats true,
All that is real.
We all must ask,
Is this what we wanted?
Will we take off our mask,
Or just keep living lives haunted?
When we finally realize,
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
And perhaps, we will finally be one.
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
Our personalities turning numb.
We've lost ourselves in the cadence,
And we are missing the picture,
Living with nothing but impatience,
It is within our nature.
We still don't have a clue,
The way we truly feel,
Behind our facades we hide whats true,
All that is real.
We all must ask,
Is this what we wanted?
Will we take off our mask,
Or just keep living lives haunted?
When we finally realize,
How typical we have become,
We watch ourselves materialize,
And perhaps, we will finally be one.
Mission Incomplete
Running away from who we are,
We take to the street,
We are chasing the stars,
A mission incomplete.
We try to escape our shadows,
But our route they repeat,
We can fight in epic battles,
But it still remains a mission incomplete.
We can try and evade,
Our enemy so discreet,
We can hide in a masquerade,
Yet it is a mission incomplete.
Knocking on the door,
Of past defeat,
My reflection so sore,
From a mission incomplete.
For you can never out run yourself,
Your shadow you never will beat,
It does not matter your stealth,
Forever this will be a mission incomplete.
We take to the street,
We are chasing the stars,
A mission incomplete.
We try to escape our shadows,
But our route they repeat,
We can fight in epic battles,
But it still remains a mission incomplete.
We can try and evade,
Our enemy so discreet,
We can hide in a masquerade,
Yet it is a mission incomplete.
Knocking on the door,
Of past defeat,
My reflection so sore,
From a mission incomplete.
For you can never out run yourself,
Your shadow you never will beat,
It does not matter your stealth,
Forever this will be a mission incomplete.
Saturday, May 22, 2010
What Happened To Us?
It is with the lack of love,
In which my heart sinks,
I know I'm not enough,
To even make you think.
I'm just drowning,
In the air I breathe,
You ask why I'm frowning,
It is better if you just leave.
You used to actually try,
You made me feel real,
But now without you I cry,
You just wanna break me before I heal.
Your face,
I'll never forget,
Running in place,
Will not cleanse my regret.
I blew my chance,
I let you slip away,
This is my last stance,
Before I fall prey.
In which my heart sinks,
I know I'm not enough,
To even make you think.
I'm just drowning,
In the air I breathe,
You ask why I'm frowning,
It is better if you just leave.
You used to actually try,
You made me feel real,
But now without you I cry,
You just wanna break me before I heal.
Your face,
I'll never forget,
Running in place,
Will not cleanse my regret.
I blew my chance,
I let you slip away,
This is my last stance,
Before I fall prey.
Friday, May 21, 2010
If Erasing Them Could
Would these words be said,
If a wall were in between,
These words are vagrants in my head,
Ideas so obscene.
These reoccurring thoughts,
The haunting of my memories,
The usefulness of naughts,
Feeding this disease.
If erasing them could,
I could feel alive,
If erasing them would,
I would be able to thrive.
These thoughts do more then stress,
It isn't simple to understand,
The ideas they present depress,
As I hang onto the glory at my right hand.
These are the days of my surrender,
As the glory tears me apart,
For I am my own offender,
And I'm sentenced to the removal of my heart.
If erasing them could,
I could be free to feel,
If erasing them would,
I would have my numbness heal.
Now my mind goes up in smoke,
Slowly fading away,
On my will I choke,
And my heart decays.
Is this the solution,
Or is it just another question,
I know it as my execution,
But is this my intention?
And if erasing them could,
I could move on without having to cry,
And if erasing them would,
I would go on without having to die.
If a wall were in between,
These words are vagrants in my head,
Ideas so obscene.
These reoccurring thoughts,
The haunting of my memories,
The usefulness of naughts,
Feeding this disease.
If erasing them could,
I could feel alive,
If erasing them would,
I would be able to thrive.
These thoughts do more then stress,
It isn't simple to understand,
The ideas they present depress,
As I hang onto the glory at my right hand.
These are the days of my surrender,
As the glory tears me apart,
For I am my own offender,
And I'm sentenced to the removal of my heart.
If erasing them could,
I could be free to feel,
If erasing them would,
I would have my numbness heal.
Now my mind goes up in smoke,
Slowly fading away,
On my will I choke,
And my heart decays.
Is this the solution,
Or is it just another question,
I know it as my execution,
But is this my intention?
And if erasing them could,
I could move on without having to cry,
And if erasing them would,
I would go on without having to die.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
A Bridge's Collapse
Build this bridge alone,
Collapsing beneath,
We should have known,
We couldn't hold on by the skin of our teeth.
We have eyes,
But we don't see,
These maleficent lies,
Death has come to set us free.
We crave this pain,
We aren't scared of death,
We are turning insane,
And don't care if we have our breath.
We are descendants from Hell,
Demons so demented,
Our identities we will never tell,
For we are souls unrelented.
They're coming for me,
This is the end of my time,
Today is the death of beauty,
And I will pay for existing is my crime.
Collapsing beneath,
We should have known,
We couldn't hold on by the skin of our teeth.
We have eyes,
But we don't see,
These maleficent lies,
Death has come to set us free.
We crave this pain,
We aren't scared of death,
We are turning insane,
And don't care if we have our breath.
We are descendants from Hell,
Demons so demented,
Our identities we will never tell,
For we are souls unrelented.
They're coming for me,
This is the end of my time,
Today is the death of beauty,
And I will pay for existing is my crime.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
A Love Ever Longed
They want to live together,
But these pieces never did fit,
They said they'd be forever,
But this part I never did get.
She is out every night,
Looking her best,
He hides from the light,
With blood and tears on his chest,
Blood and tears on his chest.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
He sees her in town,
Another guy in her hand,
His life spirals down,
And his life he can't stand.
He takes off a run,
She tries to catch up,
She wants to be his one,
But she is out of luck,
Out of luck.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
He slits his wrist,
He has lost it all,
He begs not to exist,
From the roof he does fall.
His blood covers the ground,
It is like he never was born,
Lost in the sound,
His body she does mourn,
She does mourn.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
Now she cries,
Herself to sleep,
She lived within lies,
But his heart she did keep.
She had always longed,
But now there is nothing left,
His life she had wronged,
And now he's without breath,
Without breath.
Now her bed is half cold,
The fault is her own,
His heart she had sold,
And now she knows how it feels to be alone
But these pieces never did fit,
They said they'd be forever,
But this part I never did get.
She is out every night,
Looking her best,
He hides from the light,
With blood and tears on his chest,
Blood and tears on his chest.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
He sees her in town,
Another guy in her hand,
His life spirals down,
And his life he can't stand.
He takes off a run,
She tries to catch up,
She wants to be his one,
But she is out of luck,
Out of luck.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
He slits his wrist,
He has lost it all,
He begs not to exist,
From the roof he does fall.
His blood covers the ground,
It is like he never was born,
Lost in the sound,
His body she does mourn,
She does mourn.
From the first day,
He heard her voice,
He always wanted to say,
That she was his choice.
But she doesn't know,
All she has done,
His scars do show,
His Hell has begun,
Hell has begun.
Now she cries,
Herself to sleep,
She lived within lies,
But his heart she did keep.
She had always longed,
But now there is nothing left,
His life she had wronged,
And now he's without breath,
Without breath.
Now her bed is half cold,
The fault is her own,
His heart she had sold,
And now she knows how it feels to be alone
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Collapsing
I have been left behind,
This building set a flame,
Only blood you will find,
And only I am to blame.
One I had trusted,
Pushed the blade deeper,
The blade had thrusted,
Into the back of this sleeper.
But there is justice,
In the act of betrayal,
We can explain if you let us,
For this wound is fatal.
And it is the answer to our prayer,
This red that consumes us all,
Hell's own soothsayer,
Guiding us as we fall.
And this crutch once existent,
Collapses in on me,
Only one remains persistent,
And he is the only reason to be.
It is over time,
That I learn who is there,
So I write this rhyme,
To remind me who actually may care.
This building set a flame,
Only blood you will find,
And only I am to blame.
One I had trusted,
Pushed the blade deeper,
The blade had thrusted,
Into the back of this sleeper.
But there is justice,
In the act of betrayal,
We can explain if you let us,
For this wound is fatal.
And it is the answer to our prayer,
This red that consumes us all,
Hell's own soothsayer,
Guiding us as we fall.
And this crutch once existent,
Collapses in on me,
Only one remains persistent,
And he is the only reason to be.
It is over time,
That I learn who is there,
So I write this rhyme,
To remind me who actually may care.
A Step Away
Open my eyes,
To blinding light,
As the darkness dies,
In the dead of the night.
This fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.
And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.
I want to be with you,
Live together,
Faith in you has grew,
And I want it to last forever.
You probably don't feel the same,
I am but a friend,
You don't want to play that game,
And only friendly love you will lend.
Yet I long,
To hold you for awhile,
Is it so wrong,
To want to make you smile?
And this fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.
And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.
I will wait,
A life time if I must,
And defy all the hate,
Just to earn your trust.
I will face suppression,
For all they may misconstrue,
A life's lesson.
To prove my love to you.
To blinding light,
As the darkness dies,
In the dead of the night.
This fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.
And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.
I want to be with you,
Live together,
Faith in you has grew,
And I want it to last forever.
You probably don't feel the same,
I am but a friend,
You don't want to play that game,
And only friendly love you will lend.
Yet I long,
To hold you for awhile,
Is it so wrong,
To want to make you smile?
And this fire,
Lighting my way,
All my hope and desire,
Is just a step away.
And you don't even know,
That you live in my dreams,
Where your face always glows,
And your smile always gleams.
I will wait,
A life time if I must,
And defy all the hate,
Just to earn your trust.
I will face suppression,
For all they may misconstrue,
A life's lesson.
To prove my love to you.
Monday, May 10, 2010
A Losing Game
I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
You're the first one,
That's had faith in me,
Could this game be won,
Could we be meant to be?
I dream all day,
Happy I feel,
I want to say,
Can this be real?
For I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
I am desperately awaiting,
For you to say,
I'm not the only one relating,
Whose heart is drifting away.
Lost in your eyes,
Trapped in their shine,
Will I take off my disguise,
And ask you to be mine?
And I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
You're the first one,
That's had faith in me,
Could this game be won,
Could we be meant to be?
I dream all day,
Happy I feel,
I want to say,
Can this be real?
For I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
I am desperately awaiting,
For you to say,
I'm not the only one relating,
Whose heart is drifting away.
Lost in your eyes,
Trapped in their shine,
Will I take off my disguise,
And ask you to be mine?
And I hear the voices,
Telling me to make a move,
How I hate making choices,
It's a game I always lose.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Hand In Hand
I can feel the burn,
Of the light from the sun,
I am beginning to learn,
There is no use to run.
I can race the sunset,
But I will never win,
Sometimes it is better to forget,
The darkness I once lived in.
For the light,
Always will shine,
And their is no sin to fight,
Within this state of mind.
And until the day I die,
I will stand,
You will be my alibi,
To live hand in hand.
Of the light from the sun,
I am beginning to learn,
There is no use to run.
I can race the sunset,
But I will never win,
Sometimes it is better to forget,
The darkness I once lived in.
For the light,
Always will shine,
And their is no sin to fight,
Within this state of mind.
And until the day I die,
I will stand,
You will be my alibi,
To live hand in hand.
Friday, May 7, 2010
As Long As We Can Be Together
In the still of the night,
We all are caught in the silence,
Under a moon so bright,
To the darkness we show our defiance.
We dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.
We break down these walls,
Put in attempt to keep us apart,
But under our love it falls,
For you can not sever our heart.
They are synchronized,
To the rhythm of each others,
For to us they are prized,
Hearts between lovers'.
For they can not contain,
This feeling so strong,
Only dust remains,
As we live a love ever long.
For we dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.
We all are caught in the silence,
Under a moon so bright,
To the darkness we show our defiance.
We dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.
We break down these walls,
Put in attempt to keep us apart,
But under our love it falls,
For you can not sever our heart.
They are synchronized,
To the rhythm of each others,
For to us they are prized,
Hearts between lovers'.
For they can not contain,
This feeling so strong,
Only dust remains,
As we live a love ever long.
For we dance in the rain,
Just to show that we can take the weather,
We live against the grain,
As long as we can be together.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
If Love Exists
The shadows call from yesterday,
The past returns far too frequent,
Trying to take my future away,
But my attention it needn't.
I've moved on,
From this time I once knew,
Those feelings are already gone,
And my future is painted without you.
If loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
My heart is my own,
Once again,
You turned it to stone,
But I turned back your sin.
Go on and try,
You are no longer my friend,
It doesn't matter how you cry,
It won't rewrite the unwritten end.
And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
I will never let this get to me,
Or this skin plagued by stain,
For with time I fade,
But the memories remain.
But they will not haunt me,
I am glad this time has passed,
And today I decree,
Nothing is built to last.
And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
The past returns far too frequent,
Trying to take my future away,
But my attention it needn't.
I've moved on,
From this time I once knew,
Those feelings are already gone,
And my future is painted without you.
If loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
My heart is my own,
Once again,
You turned it to stone,
But I turned back your sin.
Go on and try,
You are no longer my friend,
It doesn't matter how you cry,
It won't rewrite the unwritten end.
And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
I will never let this get to me,
Or this skin plagued by stain,
For with time I fade,
But the memories remain.
But they will not haunt me,
I am glad this time has passed,
And today I decree,
Nothing is built to last.
And if loves exists,
I will fall,
But you will not persist,
For in my mind you are nothing at all.
Rest In Peace
Rest in peace,
My life's ambition,
Break the leash,
My flat-lined inhibition.
Rest in peace,
My dearest will,
You slowly decrease,
Soon vanity will fill.
Rest in peace,
My forgotten emotion,
Your want may cease,
And isn't worth my devotion.
So as I say goodbye,
To friend and soul,
I prepare to die,
As life has took its toll.
So rust in peace,
My long lost reason,
May I decease,
For my life is treason.
My life's ambition,
Break the leash,
My flat-lined inhibition.
Rest in peace,
My dearest will,
You slowly decrease,
Soon vanity will fill.
Rest in peace,
My forgotten emotion,
Your want may cease,
And isn't worth my devotion.
So as I say goodbye,
To friend and soul,
I prepare to die,
As life has took its toll.
So rust in peace,
My long lost reason,
May I decease,
For my life is treason.
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
The Best Parts Of This Have Come And Gone
You still don't understand,
All that you've done,
All this trouble at hand,
And how this war can't be won.
You made your own Hell,
As have I,
The difference is simple to tell,
In mine to escape I try.
You don't seen to want out,
You just want to pull me back in,
That is what this is all about,
It is your sin.
I don't care about you,
I am not that pathetic,
And that will always be true,
For you are so fake and aesthetic.
You can hold it against me,
I'm still stronger without you,
You need to see,
That you need to learn to let go on cue.
I've let you walk all over me,
Enough in the past,
I won't let it be,
I won't let it last.
For you mean nothing,
All you cause is pain,
You don't mean something,
And your attempt to argue is vain
All that you've done,
All this trouble at hand,
And how this war can't be won.
You made your own Hell,
As have I,
The difference is simple to tell,
In mine to escape I try.
You don't seen to want out,
You just want to pull me back in,
That is what this is all about,
It is your sin.
I don't care about you,
I am not that pathetic,
And that will always be true,
For you are so fake and aesthetic.
You can hold it against me,
I'm still stronger without you,
You need to see,
That you need to learn to let go on cue.
I've let you walk all over me,
Enough in the past,
I won't let it be,
I won't let it last.
For you mean nothing,
All you cause is pain,
You don't mean something,
And your attempt to argue is vain
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
So, You Think You're The Righteous One?
I never thought you'd lose yourself,
But apparently your conscience can not be found,
I hope you care not for your health,
For it is far from being safe and sound.
I've given you plenty of chances,
But you just pat the knife deeper,
Caught up in your own selfish trances,
And your hill will only grow steeper.
Do you feel this hole,
A soon open bleeding sore,
To pay for the time you have stole,
As you have hit the floor.
All you can be,
Is a stupid whore,
And to me,
You are nothing more.
But apparently your conscience can not be found,
I hope you care not for your health,
For it is far from being safe and sound.
I've given you plenty of chances,
But you just pat the knife deeper,
Caught up in your own selfish trances,
And your hill will only grow steeper.
Do you feel this hole,
A soon open bleeding sore,
To pay for the time you have stole,
As you have hit the floor.
All you can be,
Is a stupid whore,
And to me,
You are nothing more.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Everything I Fear
The pain is all-consuming,
All what I once knew,
These lies I am presuming,
Creates this desolate view.
A walk down a path once known,
To a place I used to love,
Now it feels so empty and alone,
And in the sorrow I drown there of.
I think I remember this,
Feeling once left behind,
Hidden in this poisoning kiss,
In which the darkness turned me blind.
This place is so haunting,
Lurking within each and every tear,
The memories are so taunting,
Wanting me to forget that I was here.
All this abhorrence I do receive,
Must break away,
If I didn't want to leave,
All I had to do was stay.
But I couldn't even do that right,
I ran from what I held dear,
I ran from the light,
And now what I love is everything I fear.
All what I once knew,
These lies I am presuming,
Creates this desolate view.
A walk down a path once known,
To a place I used to love,
Now it feels so empty and alone,
And in the sorrow I drown there of.
I think I remember this,
Feeling once left behind,
Hidden in this poisoning kiss,
In which the darkness turned me blind.
This place is so haunting,
Lurking within each and every tear,
The memories are so taunting,
Wanting me to forget that I was here.
All this abhorrence I do receive,
Must break away,
If I didn't want to leave,
All I had to do was stay.
But I couldn't even do that right,
I ran from what I held dear,
I ran from the light,
And now what I love is everything I fear.
Saturday, May 1, 2010
When Everything Fades
Why are we still here,
Arguing problems of yesterday?
Why do I still hold you dear,
After you put me through all this dismay?
It doesn't matter now,
For you are here in my time of need,
And to you I bow,
And leave this for you to read.
When there comes a time,
When you feel the pressure,
Just turn to this rhyme,
To see how you I treasure.
You are a luminous heroine,
Within this burning utopia,
The one who sets my head a spin,
Within this world of anthropophobia.
For when everything falls,
We will stand,
And when everything stalls,
I will be there to hold your hand.
And when everything fades,
We will shine strong,
Throw out the blades,
And we will live ever long.
Arguing problems of yesterday?
Why do I still hold you dear,
After you put me through all this dismay?
It doesn't matter now,
For you are here in my time of need,
And to you I bow,
And leave this for you to read.
When there comes a time,
When you feel the pressure,
Just turn to this rhyme,
To see how you I treasure.
You are a luminous heroine,
Within this burning utopia,
The one who sets my head a spin,
Within this world of anthropophobia.
For when everything falls,
We will stand,
And when everything stalls,
I will be there to hold your hand.
And when everything fades,
We will shine strong,
Throw out the blades,
And we will live ever long.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
It Is Missing
What is going on?
It all came so quick,
And now you're gone,
And I feel sick.
Something here is amiss,
But I don't know what,
I feel no bliss,
I am stuck in a rut.
The world no longer spins,
I never smile,
All of my actions are sins,
Yet I'm depressed all a while.
For something is gone,
Tears me apart,
I knew what was going on,
When she left he took my heart.
It all came so quick,
And now you're gone,
And I feel sick.
Something here is amiss,
But I don't know what,
I feel no bliss,
I am stuck in a rut.
The world no longer spins,
I never smile,
All of my actions are sins,
Yet I'm depressed all a while.
For something is gone,
Tears me apart,
I knew what was going on,
When she left he took my heart.
My Apocalypse
As I am dying,
My eyes fix on you,
Looking to be saved from the lying,
But you haven't a clue.
You stand there,
And smile like all is well,
You stop and stare,
As I burn in Hell.
The roar of your voice,
Helps sustain,
Through this air so moist,
In the land of the insane.
You're such a misfit,
In this world of the forsaken,
Where I drown in society's spit,
To belong here you're mistaken.
You don't want to live here,
You'll be cut by glassid lips,
There is much to fear,
Within my apocalypse.
My eyes fix on you,
Looking to be saved from the lying,
But you haven't a clue.
You stand there,
And smile like all is well,
You stop and stare,
As I burn in Hell.
The roar of your voice,
Helps sustain,
Through this air so moist,
In the land of the insane.
You're such a misfit,
In this world of the forsaken,
Where I drown in society's spit,
To belong here you're mistaken.
You don't want to live here,
You'll be cut by glassid lips,
There is much to fear,
Within my apocalypse.
Saturday, April 24, 2010
We Live In Dreams
We have been waiting,
For so long to prevail,
Spent our time relating,
Never taking time to exhale.
We failed to stop and think,
To realize there is something missing,
And as we are blind with every blink,
We spend our time with pointless wishing.
So this is your chance,
To make everything right,
Take a new glance,
And see the brightness of the light.
Feel the warmth of this radiance,
And notice that perhaps there is more,
In these words find the cadence,
And hear the echoing roar.
It is here that we find,
Nothing is as it seems,
But we can change our mind,
For when together we live in dreams.
For so long to prevail,
Spent our time relating,
Never taking time to exhale.
We failed to stop and think,
To realize there is something missing,
And as we are blind with every blink,
We spend our time with pointless wishing.
So this is your chance,
To make everything right,
Take a new glance,
And see the brightness of the light.
Feel the warmth of this radiance,
And notice that perhaps there is more,
In these words find the cadence,
And hear the echoing roar.
It is here that we find,
Nothing is as it seems,
But we can change our mind,
For when together we live in dreams.
Friday, April 23, 2010
All Along
So here is the truth,
You were right all along,
A lie among youth,
I was lost in the wrong.
Digging a hole deep in the ground,
Where my life I did spend,
Waiting for a sound,
Wind up lost in the end.
It is hard to know what's real,
When you are not,
With each and every moment I steal,
When you are all I got.
So let's run away,
Just me and you,
We don't have to stay,
In order to pursue.
Don't worry,
I was fine all along,
Though the future is blurry,
I will grow strong.
For you are all I need,
To change my ways,
You can sow the seed,
To bring better days.
You were right all along,
A lie among youth,
I was lost in the wrong.
Digging a hole deep in the ground,
Where my life I did spend,
Waiting for a sound,
Wind up lost in the end.
It is hard to know what's real,
When you are not,
With each and every moment I steal,
When you are all I got.
So let's run away,
Just me and you,
We don't have to stay,
In order to pursue.
Don't worry,
I was fine all along,
Though the future is blurry,
I will grow strong.
For you are all I need,
To change my ways,
You can sow the seed,
To bring better days.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Bliss
Why must you feel,
This maleficent urge?
How can you deal,
And still emerge?
Sometimes being close,
To the downfall of your sanity,
Is just like an overdose,
An example of living in vanity.
And you want to feel the rush,
Of tearing your skin apart,
It's but a crush,
Why should you act like you have a heart?
You don't cut,
For the same reason you want to,
You may care about him but,
All he's done is hurt you.
Get me out of this Hell,
With my seizure-like finger,
And it's will to propel,
Dead on the trigger.
So make your choice,
If you think he is worth it,
Listen to your inner voice,
Or be ignorant and forget.
Well I know what they say,
And his sound I do miss,
Darkness take me away,
For ignorance is bliss.
This maleficent urge?
How can you deal,
And still emerge?
Sometimes being close,
To the downfall of your sanity,
Is just like an overdose,
An example of living in vanity.
And you want to feel the rush,
Of tearing your skin apart,
It's but a crush,
Why should you act like you have a heart?
You don't cut,
For the same reason you want to,
You may care about him but,
All he's done is hurt you.
Get me out of this Hell,
With my seizure-like finger,
And it's will to propel,
Dead on the trigger.
So make your choice,
If you think he is worth it,
Listen to your inner voice,
Or be ignorant and forget.
Well I know what they say,
And his sound I do miss,
Darkness take me away,
For ignorance is bliss.
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
Seize The Day
I look into his eyes,
As the world stops turning,
It was no surprise,
We are always learning.
But his eyes remain,
So vibrant in my head,
As the words echo in my brain,
Every word he has said.
But I am naught,
Nothing more,
Yet he thought,
I had more in store.
I tried to understand,
Why anyone would want me,
I want to hold his hand,
And open my heart to let him see.
But I cannot,
And I must move on,
I've never met a lot,
And soon I will be gone.
But be not afraid,
Let's seize the day,
So as we fade,
We can say:
"I know that you feel pain,
I hurt as well,
We are one and the same,
And we'll meet in Hell.
But it's okay,
We will be the few,
And finally I will be able to say,
I love you"
As the world stops turning,
It was no surprise,
We are always learning.
But his eyes remain,
So vibrant in my head,
As the words echo in my brain,
Every word he has said.
But I am naught,
Nothing more,
Yet he thought,
I had more in store.
I tried to understand,
Why anyone would want me,
I want to hold his hand,
And open my heart to let him see.
But I cannot,
And I must move on,
I've never met a lot,
And soon I will be gone.
But be not afraid,
Let's seize the day,
So as we fade,
We can say:
"I know that you feel pain,
I hurt as well,
We are one and the same,
And we'll meet in Hell.
But it's okay,
We will be the few,
And finally I will be able to say,
I love you"
A Walk Away
Is it really so tough,
To just let go,
This path before me is rough,
And I know,
That I'll hurt,
And hold the pain to death,
One by one, my friends desert,
As I slowly stop stealing breath.
As my world comes crashing down,
I extend my hand to you,
You smile and I frown,
As you walk away on cue.
How can I just forget,
The day you walked away,
The last time I'll ever regret,
The blood I spilled that day.
Now your face,
Haunts me in my dreams,
Without a chance to embrace,
I fall apart at the seams.
You still have no clue,
Of how much pain I still endure,
I can hide all I want from the true,
I know there is no feasible cure.
To just let go,
This path before me is rough,
And I know,
That I'll hurt,
And hold the pain to death,
One by one, my friends desert,
As I slowly stop stealing breath.
As my world comes crashing down,
I extend my hand to you,
You smile and I frown,
As you walk away on cue.
How can I just forget,
The day you walked away,
The last time I'll ever regret,
The blood I spilled that day.
Now your face,
Haunts me in my dreams,
Without a chance to embrace,
I fall apart at the seams.
You still have no clue,
Of how much pain I still endure,
I can hide all I want from the true,
I know there is no feasible cure.
Finding Our Way
When there is a road,
I will find our way,
What we had you sold,
You couldn't have me that day.
The cost of time,
Is obviously too much,
I guess waiting is a crime,
And should be treated as such.
But why do I,
Feel the same,
Why must I cry,
To stay in the game?
I can roll the dice,
But you will never budge,
Follow my own bad advice,
And hold my grudge.
We know I'll never win,
But I still waste my time away,
Never again,
Will my heart beat anyway.
I will find our way,
What we had you sold,
You couldn't have me that day.
The cost of time,
Is obviously too much,
I guess waiting is a crime,
And should be treated as such.
But why do I,
Feel the same,
Why must I cry,
To stay in the game?
I can roll the dice,
But you will never budge,
Follow my own bad advice,
And hold my grudge.
We know I'll never win,
But I still waste my time away,
Never again,
Will my heart beat anyway.
Monday, April 19, 2010
The Key
In this moment,
So deadly still,
A feeling once dormant,
The crack may it fill.
This bellowing vibration,
That consumes the air,
A beauty of your creation,
Leaves me just to stare.
Bonded by these chains,
That bind my heart,
They say it was but simple strains,
But I know it was more from the start.
Something beyond which one may see,
Stowed away out of reach,
Is the key to set me free,
To retrieve it I beseech.
I have found the cure,
Hidden in your emotion,
It is beyond what one can infer,
And is fulfilled through devotion.
Maybe one day,
This dream will be true,
Love has its crazy way,
And the protagonist in this story is you.
So deadly still,
A feeling once dormant,
The crack may it fill.
This bellowing vibration,
That consumes the air,
A beauty of your creation,
Leaves me just to stare.
Bonded by these chains,
That bind my heart,
They say it was but simple strains,
But I know it was more from the start.
Something beyond which one may see,
Stowed away out of reach,
Is the key to set me free,
To retrieve it I beseech.
I have found the cure,
Hidden in your emotion,
It is beyond what one can infer,
And is fulfilled through devotion.
Maybe one day,
This dream will be true,
Love has its crazy way,
And the protagonist in this story is you.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
The Thoughts Of The Depressed
It is hard to tell you what is wrong,
When I feel like nothing is right,
How can I ever be strong,
If I am never willing to fight?
Sometimes we just need to run,
To see who will follow,
A bullet shot out of a gun,
So very tough to swallow.
There's a smile on my face,
That shouldn't be there,
I wear it to my disgrace,
Just for those who don't care.
The only thing standing between me and glee,
Is reality,
When despair is all we can see,
How do we turn our back on brutality?
Yet you still wonder,
Why I am never happy,
The answer is my blunder,
You know I always feel crappy.
I'm tired of trying,
Sick of crying,
I know I'm smiling,
But inside I'm dying.
When I feel like nothing is right,
How can I ever be strong,
If I am never willing to fight?
Sometimes we just need to run,
To see who will follow,
A bullet shot out of a gun,
So very tough to swallow.
There's a smile on my face,
That shouldn't be there,
I wear it to my disgrace,
Just for those who don't care.
The only thing standing between me and glee,
Is reality,
When despair is all we can see,
How do we turn our back on brutality?
Yet you still wonder,
Why I am never happy,
The answer is my blunder,
You know I always feel crappy.
I'm tired of trying,
Sick of crying,
I know I'm smiling,
But inside I'm dying.
Saturday, April 17, 2010
Rising Above
Living in the past,
We act like no one should,
But this time will be our last,
For we will turn good.
We bite our nails,
Snort some coke,
Tell tall tales,
On lies we choke.
We sever our skin,
We drink all day,
We never win,
We aren't meant to be this way.
We have each other,
It is all we need,
Our temptations we can smother,
And plant our seed.
Filled with hope and desire,
We will change today,
Together we utilize our fire,
To light the way.
For we are much stronger,
Then we ever did know,
As we grow ever longer,
We rise out of this low.
Standing tall,
We are free,
We will never fall,
But forever we will be.
We act like no one should,
But this time will be our last,
For we will turn good.
We bite our nails,
Snort some coke,
Tell tall tales,
On lies we choke.
We sever our skin,
We drink all day,
We never win,
We aren't meant to be this way.
We have each other,
It is all we need,
Our temptations we can smother,
And plant our seed.
Filled with hope and desire,
We will change today,
Together we utilize our fire,
To light the way.
For we are much stronger,
Then we ever did know,
As we grow ever longer,
We rise out of this low.
Standing tall,
We are free,
We will never fall,
But forever we will be.
Monday, April 12, 2010
Final Decree
I just lay here,
Amidst this deafening silence,
This is my requiem of fear,
My own war of defiance.
With each and every breath,
I feel myself fade away,
A pain worse than death,
A heart of vanity and decay.
Everything seems so fake,
I'm so numb I can not feel,
They say you need to break,
Before you can heal.
But we know that I'm not the same,
I always skip step two,
I'm lost in the game,
And the only one who can help is you.
So join me in this final parade,
Together we will move the tallest mountain,
Dance behind our disguises to this masquerade,
We will live as one and may hope be our fountain.
Just keep the faith,
Together we will be,
Forever safe,
This is my final decree.
Amidst this deafening silence,
This is my requiem of fear,
My own war of defiance.
With each and every breath,
I feel myself fade away,
A pain worse than death,
A heart of vanity and decay.
Everything seems so fake,
I'm so numb I can not feel,
They say you need to break,
Before you can heal.
But we know that I'm not the same,
I always skip step two,
I'm lost in the game,
And the only one who can help is you.
So join me in this final parade,
Together we will move the tallest mountain,
Dance behind our disguises to this masquerade,
We will live as one and may hope be our fountain.
Just keep the faith,
Together we will be,
Forever safe,
This is my final decree.
Friday, April 9, 2010
More Alive
The cracking of thunder,
Inside our brain,
Thoughts of our blunder,
Driving ourselves insane.
Your new best friends,
Are they there when you need them most?
Your failing self-confidence,
Are you still alive or are you just ghost?
The same questions,
Echoing in your head,
The same intentions,
To raise the dead.
But don't ever live in fear,
You should of always known,
For you know who will always be here,
How I will never let you be alone.
So take this to heart,
Hold your head high,
As the world falls apart,
Your tears remain dry.
For I won't let you cry,
Together we will survive,
Hand in hand we will never die,
But we will only become more alive.
Inside our brain,
Thoughts of our blunder,
Driving ourselves insane.
Your new best friends,
Are they there when you need them most?
Your failing self-confidence,
Are you still alive or are you just ghost?
The same questions,
Echoing in your head,
The same intentions,
To raise the dead.
But don't ever live in fear,
You should of always known,
For you know who will always be here,
How I will never let you be alone.
So take this to heart,
Hold your head high,
As the world falls apart,
Your tears remain dry.
For I won't let you cry,
Together we will survive,
Hand in hand we will never die,
But we will only become more alive.
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Go On If You Think No One Wants You
We live through our prime,
Searching for a purpose,
Only to realize over time,
That it is just a scratch in the surface.
We too easily forget,
That life is more then you and I,
Pain is just our outlet,
In which we choose to cry.
We are so selfish,
Pushing the blame away,
Living in anguish,
Making others our prey.
Sometimes it is better,
To take credit where due,
Like Jesus played letter,
The blame falls on you.
So hang on,
And look me in the eye,
You are just a pawn,
Is this how you want to die?
So go on and cry your eyes out,
Dig the blade deeper into your skin,
Live your life in doubt,
But without you no one would see my face again.
No one wants you,
Thats such a lie,
Never was true,
Without you I'd die.......
Searching for a purpose,
Only to realize over time,
That it is just a scratch in the surface.
We too easily forget,
That life is more then you and I,
Pain is just our outlet,
In which we choose to cry.
We are so selfish,
Pushing the blame away,
Living in anguish,
Making others our prey.
Sometimes it is better,
To take credit where due,
Like Jesus played letter,
The blame falls on you.
So hang on,
And look me in the eye,
You are just a pawn,
Is this how you want to die?
So go on and cry your eyes out,
Dig the blade deeper into your skin,
Live your life in doubt,
But without you no one would see my face again.
No one wants you,
Thats such a lie,
Never was true,
Without you I'd die.......
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
The Bleakening
Why must it hurt,
So much at the thought of her face,
Face down in the dirt,
Living in disgrace.
I like him,
I really do,
Emotions astir,
Why must I like you?
I thought I meant more,
Then to be thrown aside for later,
Now my will is sore,
And the pain couldn't get any greater.
I keep talking to you,
And with each and every word I grow weaker,
Just because what I feel is still true,
Even as my future grows bleaker.
So much at the thought of her face,
Face down in the dirt,
Living in disgrace.
I like him,
I really do,
Emotions astir,
Why must I like you?
I thought I meant more,
Then to be thrown aside for later,
Now my will is sore,
And the pain couldn't get any greater.
I keep talking to you,
And with each and every word I grow weaker,
Just because what I feel is still true,
Even as my future grows bleaker.
Our Love Is Forever
This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
Don't be afraid to die,
Death will be our alibi,
The admission we buy,
It is worth us to try.
We won't let them win,
So with these chemicals we sin,
Put it back with a splash of gin,
And we will let our heads spin.
This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
Lay down one last time,
Before we are finished with our little crime,
As the poison turns to chyme,
We get lost in rhyme.
Into each others eyes we stare,
This is the answer to our prayer,
This burden in which we bear,
Ends here for all we care.
This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
We fade away together,
Through the worst of weather,
Our lives may sever,
But our love is forever.
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
Don't be afraid to die,
Death will be our alibi,
The admission we buy,
It is worth us to try.
We won't let them win,
So with these chemicals we sin,
Put it back with a splash of gin,
And we will let our heads spin.
This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
Lay down one last time,
Before we are finished with our little crime,
As the poison turns to chyme,
We get lost in rhyme.
Into each others eyes we stare,
This is the answer to our prayer,
This burden in which we bear,
Ends here for all we care.
This day,
Together we say,
As we are falling away,
You're the only reason I have to stay.
We fade away together,
Through the worst of weather,
Our lives may sever,
But our love is forever.
Monday, April 5, 2010
A Pathetic Poetic
How do I choose,
Between right and wrong,
Either way I lose,
I was never that strong.
Just another ,
So easily replaced,
Believing a lie,
Living in haste.
I can try and ignore,
Attempt to forget,
But it leaves my heart sore,
And full of regret.
I made my own Hell,
So fake and aesthetic,
I am depressed you can tell,
Just a pathetic poetic.
Between right and wrong,
Either way I lose,
I was never that strong.
Just another ,
So easily replaced,
Believing a lie,
Living in haste.
I can try and ignore,
Attempt to forget,
But it leaves my heart sore,
And full of regret.
I made my own Hell,
So fake and aesthetic,
I am depressed you can tell,
Just a pathetic poetic.
Saturday, April 3, 2010
Melt Away
Take a breath,
Lost in time,
What is left.
Isn't mine.
Lay down,
Everything will be okay,
Sleep safe and sound,
While you fall away.
Lose the sorrow,
Drop the frown,
There for tomorrow,
Together we drown.
It is easy to see,
In our youth,
Your eyes speak to me,
It's the truth.
Alone,
We are shaken,
Here we are known,
As the forsaken.
So take my hand,
Together we are today,
Dance upon the sand,
Together we will melt away
Lost in time,
What is left.
Isn't mine.
Lay down,
Everything will be okay,
Sleep safe and sound,
While you fall away.
Lose the sorrow,
Drop the frown,
There for tomorrow,
Together we drown.
It is easy to see,
In our youth,
Your eyes speak to me,
It's the truth.
Alone,
We are shaken,
Here we are known,
As the forsaken.
So take my hand,
Together we are today,
Dance upon the sand,
Together we will melt away
Well, Isn't This Romantic?
A light shining down,
Too bright for the eye to see,
Hidden in the smile beyond the frown,
It haunts me.
I wander as a vagrant,
To a heaven of my choice,
A place of salvation never flagrant,
In the depths of your voice.
I found a place,
Where they can never hurt you,
Free to live in grace,
A painted picture of a dream come true.
A place where nothings amiss,
A moment's reprieve,
Where you encounter myriad bliss,
Only known in make-believe.
This place exists,
A wonder we all think of,
Miracles are an endless list,
In the world of your love.
Vaster then the Atlantic,
Known by the few,
Well, isn't this romantic,
That I live just for you?
Too bright for the eye to see,
Hidden in the smile beyond the frown,
It haunts me.
I wander as a vagrant,
To a heaven of my choice,
A place of salvation never flagrant,
In the depths of your voice.
I found a place,
Where they can never hurt you,
Free to live in grace,
A painted picture of a dream come true.
A place where nothings amiss,
A moment's reprieve,
Where you encounter myriad bliss,
Only known in make-believe.
This place exists,
A wonder we all think of,
Miracles are an endless list,
In the world of your love.
Vaster then the Atlantic,
Known by the few,
Well, isn't this romantic,
That I live just for you?
An Eternal Story
Soon the rain,
Will wash away the sun,
For our lives are vain,
When we don't act as one.
Strength in number,
In this case that of two,
Together we awake from this slumber,
Just me and you.
Together we pace,
Down a long winding road,
Vis-à-vis, face-to-face,
We take on a world so cold.
But be not afraid,
For the future is ours,
Though we may fade,
Our story remains inscribed in the stars.
Hand in hand,
We light up the sky,
Shine upon the sand,
We will never have to say goodbye.
Will wash away the sun,
For our lives are vain,
When we don't act as one.
Strength in number,
In this case that of two,
Together we awake from this slumber,
Just me and you.
Together we pace,
Down a long winding road,
Vis-à-vis, face-to-face,
We take on a world so cold.
But be not afraid,
For the future is ours,
Though we may fade,
Our story remains inscribed in the stars.
Hand in hand,
We light up the sky,
Shine upon the sand,
We will never have to say goodbye.
A New Chapter
I was alone,
Wasting away,
Set in stone,
I thought I was that day.
A wandering nomad,
Long since forsaken,
A life so sad,
A mind so shaken.
But the light,
Entered through the door,
Blindingly bright,
My star evermore.
A new chapter,
May have begun,
Happily ever after,
With my shining sun.
Wasting away,
Set in stone,
I thought I was that day.
A wandering nomad,
Long since forsaken,
A life so sad,
A mind so shaken.
But the light,
Entered through the door,
Blindingly bright,
My star evermore.
A new chapter,
May have begun,
Happily ever after,
With my shining sun.
Age Is But A Number
A barricade,
Blocking my way,
I write this serenade,
To dream of the day.
For he,
Is worth the wait,
Completing me,
In the future he may create.
I wake at dawn,
And I feel once again,
The past is gone,
And this time it's real.
Here is my sign,
We are falling stars,
Leave what was left behind,
For this world is ours.
Save us,
From all the evil that we do,
Instill my trust,
Into you.
A deep sleep,
You will awake from your slumber,
Faith in you I keep,
For age is but a number.
Blocking my way,
I write this serenade,
To dream of the day.
For he,
Is worth the wait,
Completing me,
In the future he may create.
I wake at dawn,
And I feel once again,
The past is gone,
And this time it's real.
Here is my sign,
We are falling stars,
Leave what was left behind,
For this world is ours.
Save us,
From all the evil that we do,
Instill my trust,
Into you.
A deep sleep,
You will awake from your slumber,
Faith in you I keep,
For age is but a number.
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