Story Of My Fall

I sit staring at the wall all alone,
Saying I know you won't let me down,
Been at this for days, I should of known,
That in your lies I would drown.

Slowly this silence is killing me,
I'm breaking down and freaking out,
Pull my heart out for you to see,
What this is all about.

What will it take to make,
You know that I need you,
How long until I break,
How long until your promise rings true?

I'll make you wish you never left,
As pieces of me fall to the floor,
This will be my last breath,
I can't stand thinking of you anymore.

Such a beautiful lie,
This writing on the wall,
To run you can try,
As my blood paints the story of my fall.

Tainted Faith

The nostalgia I feel is so immense,
This longing for what once was,
Break down a wall just to rebuild a fence,
Take a hit just to find out it killed the buzz.

Reach for your hand just to trip,
Full of deceit was this simple design,
Into the crack I would slip,
Caught up in thinking you were mine.

The air surrounding me now is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.

But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.

Feel these walls come crashing in,
As the ground pulls me under,
Stuck in my trench again,
But I can't help but wonder.

He is looking at me,
Awkwardly from over there,
Should I of known it wasn't meant to be,
Should I care?

The air surrounding me know is still,
Feeling so cold and alone,
One thing that a apology can't fulfill,
For this is tainted faith grown.

But I won't let me bury it,
No matter how tough it gets,
Face down I still marry it,
This heart never quits.

I should of known,
This wouldn't just blow over,
Love this feeling being all alone,
I'm just missing a leaf as a four-leaf clover.

The Wind Sings

Take off down the road,
There is a long way 'til the end,
It may not be paved in gold,
But at least we are together my friend.

Run down this trail,
Like a bullet tearing through the wind,
Together we will prevail,
Like our lips set a grinned.

See the sun rising,
Like the smiles on our faces,
Our minds are memorizing,
The future our silhouette embraces.

And goodnight past,
You have come and gone,
Once you put our hearts in a cast,
But now they are beating strong.

Let's just await,
To find out what is ours,
The night is our escape,
To lay under the moon and the stars.

The wind sings a song,
Of our travel through the years,
How even when weak we became strong,
Through obstacles and fears.

Watch the time pass us by,
But we don't care,
We never question why,
Cause it left with us there.

Cause there's still tomorrow,
Another day to have our fun,
Forget the sorrow,
And just be through the rain and the sun.

Until These Tables Turn

I hate how this is,
I always find a way to make you mad,
You rarely find bliss,
Compared to this rush of pain and sad.

Let's try to get this straight,
Will we ever just get along,
Speaking in tongues that incarcerate,
Our happiness can't stay strong.

I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.

We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.

You so easily take my efforts as vain,
Nothing more than a selfish endeavor,
To try and help you must complain,
Because best friends shouldn't be forever.

We shouldn't be playing this game,
You two are only running from yourself,
"But she's not the same!",
Isn't enough to put it on the shelf.

I try to make everything right,
But it'll never be enough,
Trying to save friendship through the night,
Just gets you mad at the love.

We listen but never learn,
These lessons to not lose what we had,
How long until these tables turn,
But I guess trying to save is bad.

But we will never just get along,
From the past you just walk away,
You let friendship be come and gone,
And it will catch up one day.

So run faster with your pride,
No signs of slowing towards a curve,
You can run but not hide,
We will never get what we deserve.

A New Beginning

As we begin to fall apart,
We have to make a move,
This ending shall become a new start,
When our friendship we smooth.

We will create a path,
Starting at this dead end,
It is but simple math,
And together we conquer, my friend.

For it is what we do,
Building up these bridges together,
For with me and you,
We will do anything to make it last forever.

Easy it will not be,
Some might say it can't be done,
But have faith in me,
And this war will be won.

Forever and always was a promise,
Which I intend to keep,
For deep inside your still my bliss,
And without you I couldn't breath to weep.

So look me in the eyes,
We can make it through,
We will throw our worries to the sky,
Even if it's the last thing we do.

Follow Me

Walk to the edge,
To see if you will follow,
Is my trust worth the pledge,
Or is this relation hollow.

Burst into tears,
To see if you're there,
Show you my fears,
To see if you care.

Fall from the sky,
Will you catch my fall,
Is it worth the try,
Or are you not there at all?

Come closer to me,
So you I can hold,
Maybe you will see,
That it is not because I'm cold.

I'm afraid to want you,
Because I don't know how to feel,
What can I do,
But ask if this is real.

I sense the light,
Trying to reach me,
There is an angel in the night,
Who I desperately want to see.

Listen to the silence so calm,
Slowly easing my mind,
As the light I hold in my palm,
Washing the doubt behind.

And soon the rain,
Will wash away the doubt,
Wash away the pain,
And I will finally know what it is all about.

A Wake Up Call

Open your eyes,
This is a wake up call,
Erase the lies,
Stand up from the fall.

Explode across the thin line,
You aren't one to follow the code,
Intricate by design,
You are better then to fit the mold.

A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.

When the rain falls down,
Dance in the rain,
When there is someone else around,
Go out and act insane.

You don't have to blend in,
No one wants to be dull,
Just pick yourself up again,
It is time to cull.

A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.

Deafening silence fills the room,
Randomly yell and wail,
You are crazy they may assume,
But you bring upon a tale.

Sing a song of your own,
You don't have to follow canticle,
Who cares if you sing alone,
You aren't just another invisible.

A still frame of the same,
You don't have to be bleak,
Don't wear society's name,
Don't be afraid to be unique.

They may stare,
As you put society on the shelf,
To fit in you need not dare,
Just go out and be yourself.

Awaking From A Coma

I want to see the light,
That has been slowly slipping away,
I want to not cry at night,
When thinking of those days.

I want to be able to be fun,
Who I used to be,
But am I strong enough to run,
And become the old me.

Can I beat my emptiness,
That currently consumes my mind,
Will I be able to remember this,
Person I had left behind?

Can I change my name,
To change my persona,
I'm not the same,
Can I awake from a self-inflicted coma?

I've created a monster out of myself,
And sold my being to live another day,
I line up fourth and twelve,
In this pass I must pray.

Tonight I may not sleep,
I need to undo the stitching,
My mind needs to be changed so deep,
And this new me needs ditching.

I just hope my best is good enough,
Though I know it never is,
I know the road is long and rough,
I'm sorry if I don't make it out of this.

Finding Reason

Through missing truth,
And endless lies,
We live our youth,
In broken cries.

Reaching so far,
With our arms too short,
We reach for a star,
Wishing as a last resort.

Hoping to become more,
Then just another mistake,
We wish to know the reason for,
Our life in this reality so fake.

If we chase the sun,
Will we ever reach it's shine?
If towards the light we run,
Will its radiance become mine?

Or will we just burn up in it's heat,
Melting away our soul,
May it's beauty be no more then deceit,
With it's harmful glow.

Either way we will look,
We will find the reason to be,
And we will write in this book,
About the truth we did see.

Happiness comes from each other,
For in ourselves we are free,
Your my sister, I'm your brother,
And happiness is knowing that it is all about you and me.

What Is Love?

Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest??
-it isn`t love, it`s like.

You can`t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right??
-it isn`t love, it`s lust.

Are you proud, and eager to show them off?
- it isn`t love, it`s pride.

Do you want them because you know they`re there??
-it isn`t love, it`s loneliness.

Are you there because it`s what everyone wants??
-it isn`t love, it`s loyalty.

Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand??
-it isn`t love, it`s low confidence.

Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don`t want to hurt them??
-it isn`t love, it`s pity.

Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat??
-it isn`t love, it`s infatuation.

Do you pardon their faults because you care about them??
-it isn`t love, it`s friendship.

Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of??
-it isn`t love, it`s a lie.

Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake??
-it isn`t love, it`s charity.

Do you disregard yourself and don't care what you want at all, only what they do??
-it isn't love, it is caring

Do you feel you can't live without them??
-it isn't love, it is dependence

Do you never want to be without them??
-it isn't love, it's obsession

Do you accept and want their faults because they`re a part of who they are??
-then it`s love.

Not For Sale

The perfect crime,
Our hearts unlock these doors,
You steal mine,
And I will take yours.

We come to find,
Them trying to tear us apart,
They may change our minds,
But they can never change our hearts.

They can not stop us,
Together we will always prevail,
For in each other we trust,
And our love is not for sale.

We may be young,
But we aren't dumb,
As long as there is air in our lungs,
They won't make us numb.

For we believe in love,
And we will stay together,
As long as our hearts feel above,
We will be forever.